mountainturtle

Yo!! i am back!!

2006-03-14T23:27:00.000-08:00

Yo!! lolx... Sorry!! anyway, mine is a dead blog wat? like wat Eldora says, 1 month per blog. =)
Erm... Holidays now rite? Wow!! wanna know my schedule? i know u guys not interested, but neva mind, i will still say...
Monday -- Finish all homework, go yoga (i am in advanced class alr ok?)
Tuesday -- Do up my photos, day dream and mug for sch rteopens physics test
Wednesday -- try out my cooking, and it turn out sucky
Thursday, friday saturday -- SPH thingy... 8am - 7pm ok!!
Thursay -- CCA photography outing
Sunday -- Bukit Timah Photography outing, then my club talk... =)
Next monday -- return to reality... Oh ya, NAPFA coming, i didnt do anything at all!! how? Will die? Wat will Miss Poon do to me? Oh no!! She is nice, but not when linked to PE. >.<

i skipped sch!!

2006-01-08T21:35:00.000-08:00

Hey!! i didnt go to sch. Too tired then got slight headache, so slack la.. The doctor didn't give me any mediciation, call me take norm panadol. >.< Weird one loh him... I always got some cramps and pains in my intestines, so everytime he will press my tummy, press here press there. weird ppl... i wonder why doctors always do that to me. =( Just because i am cute? Lolx... No, because i got stomach problems... Anyway, me saying i am cute is a joke, pls laugh. =P
Shit la, i am getting lamer and lamer, all because of u guys la... >.< Guide a kid like me who used to be very innocent wrongly, now so lame and hehee.. Cheeky... Better repend ok?
Aiya.. Lim Shi Yi, dun always scold me la... So fierce, later Jun Liang dun wan u ar... Hahaa...

Muz read!!

2005-12-15T22:12:00.000-08:00

Smth happened again!! i dropped my phone into water!! Not the toilet bowl this time, but still in e toilet. =) Hahaa... So i lost all contacts... Esp primary schools ones... So pls contact me by emailing me ur no. can? Lolx... I cant stand myself!! Whoo hahaa...

Religion Night mare....

2005-12-15T18:51:00.000-08:00

You ho....
Haha... This is so nonsense!! I went to my god-Dad house ytd. =) when i wanna to go home, i saw a Mini toons plastic bag. =) Hehee.. Obviously is my Christmas present rite? Lolx... So i went ard looking for it, searching all drawers and ended up being in his cupbroad. Then he dragged me out, so strong loh!!! I screamed, roll on the carpet and his parents came out. (He injured my hands! Fingernails are long!!)
So, we went to the living room,chatting. His father asked abt my religion. I said Christain. Then he asked abt my parents. I said Buddhism. Lolx... Then i got a long trashing from his Mother. She said if i am a Christian she dun wan a god-grandchild like me. Lolx... They cornered me, to the extent that i squat down at the corner of the kitchen. Then he wanna me to say i cant go Church this Christmas. I only said " i won't go..." Lolx.. Without saying location, her mum hugged me ok? So scary!!
Then smth even worse happened. He suggested that i should take joss stick and pray to his anscentors. Wow!! i didn't touch them for like 3 years!! Then his Mother pulled me to the tablet, then took joss stick. I told her i didn't even pray at home, so how could i pray to hers. She says i am a member of their family, so i must! (WTH) Luckily he stopped playing and stopped his mother. Lolx... Poor me rite? i won't dare to go his house anymore la.... Hahaa... Like real, will go and dig for present some how...
Hoo... Next time any of u have a god-whatever, pray that their family memebers are sane!! =)

Namecard

2005-12-05T22:01:00.000-08:00

I have namecard now!! Received on Sunday. So cool rite? I designed it, then send to every committee for approval and then, woo!! hahaa... got it printed out. This is so damn cool. Showing everyone i see. I got a namecard, with my name, my phone no. and email add. Namecard ok? a kid having a namecard. This wednesday a guest will be coming to my photography club. So whoo, i will be like passing him my name card and say,"Thank you for your guidance." Hahaa.. wat a joke. Show u guys in school ok? Hahaa... So proud of myself. Nonsense.. I am crapping and crapping. Too high now!1 Yeah, i got a name card!!!
Hahaa...
- rolling on e floor -

Holidays

2005-12-02T02:36:00.000-08:00

I am so sorry.. i didnt know ppl are still reading my blog... =P so i didnt blog at all. Some how, today quite free, so i came up and have a look and whoo... No cocoa crnch but a long list of chat list. U guys are great. Btw, who is animefreak? lolx...

Anyway, update on whatever i am doing. I am simply busy with my sleeps and photography. I sleep 10hrs a day at least and eat abt 4 meals. Lolx... Quite mad rite? Opps... Never train for Napfa. Doing some holiday works as photographer and doing nth else.

Oh ya, i haven't finish my holidays homework!! I left some geography homework and el documentary. Hahaa... isn't this unlike me? i also dun understand why i am so slack now...

Oh ya, Winston sms me to tel me he got edusave award. Uncle, me too... Mine is better, top 10% ok? Scholarship!! I won my bro, yeah!! Hahaa.. kk.. Nth else to crap, i am getting more and more crappy, so i better stop. Bye!!

Nonsense

2005-10-06T05:14:00.000-07:00

=) Such a long time since i blogged. Why? Are u guys sad that i didnt blog? Anyway, i got that "crush" as a god-father now, teaching me all sorts of dirty stuffs. =) Hahaa...
Anyway, this is the exam period. Is everyone mugging as much as u can? Too bad i cant. Every time when there is an exam, i cant study the few days before it. All i do is sleep and eat. Oh ya, i gained 2kg!! 5 meals a day. Cool rite? Hahaa.. Ok.. Wanna bath then zZZ... Tml no paper, i can sleep till i shuang. =)
See ya!!

Wat an old "crash"

2005-09-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

This morning, 8am, i am awake!! Isn't this amazing? lolx... Obviously, i have something on to do. I went to help my tchr (a charity organisation head) to take photographs of the kids who were performing in Chinatown for the elderly. Blahs, i think i did a rather bad job. >.< Have my skills deproved overnight? lolx...

I went to Chinatown CC after that as my photograph is exhibited there. =) Then other than the normal crapping with my MPC friends, we were talking about the marriage status of each and everyone of them. I got a shocked of my life!! Lolx... A bro, Raymond, 36 years old, always acted like a kid. So, i always play with him. Guess what? He's married!! I wondered how he teaches his children in future. Lolx...

Because of my over-reacting reaction, they concluded that i an lian him. Lolx.. An old man u see. Since the age gap is impossible for anything, we played on... They asked him what he said to me that made me like him. Then he actually says he got charisma ok? Other than being crappy, i dun see any good points. Lolx.. =) one more, very short, easy to communicate. Not like so uncle, too tall for me to talk to...
Since our CC is very near my house, some of us went to my home first to buy mooncake. Then a jie jie, an auntie and Raymond came along. U know wat they say? Meet the parents... He called, "dad." ok? Walau, paiseh... Luckily my dad didn't catch what he said... Hahaa... Or my Dad will ban me from going to MPC la..

We were having our session in the CC what, so we all sat together and have our own discussion beneath. Raymond and another guy fell asleep, so i woke them up and said that they rude to sleep la.. He called me to brew coffee for him ok? &^%# Obviously i dun do it, even my dad wants i might not do it loh, let alone a friend. Near the end of the session, he wanted to leave early, so he told me, then asked jokingly if i wanna follow along. &^%# Then he told his friend and said that i wanna leave with him. An auntie in front heard and shouted it loud enough for everyone to hear ok? I blushed la... Paiseh... Haha.. But never mind, play with a "Dad" is ok.. Haha..
Enough of my nonsense.. Btw, i believe everyone has a crash b4. Me too, but obviously not this one. I think he has a crash on me more than i have on him, every week will sms me. =) My crash is known to quite few ppl, older than us, but lasted for 2+ months only. =) Wow, a secret online. Lolx.. too long ago to hide anything. ok la.. Enough of this weird r/s, bye!!

Jiang, swimming

2005-09-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

Like waht i said, i din't go tuition on friday, so i go for e make-up lesson on Saturday. Lolx... Regina and Rachel were in e same class too. Btw, i didn't do th4e homework, lolx...
After that, since i am going to Kuantan next week, i went to exchange Malausia currency. Btw, i bought a 512MB CF card, $62.
I went Burger King later as i got a coupon from it. =) I sat on a 4 ppl table, then 2 malay adults came to my table. Their friends found another table, so they moved away. Another malay familyl, 2 kids and a Dad came and sat with me. Lolx.. I saw them looking around and since approached me, why not let them sit? When i got out, a foreign worker kept staring at me ok? At first i thot i think too much, but when i look back again, he even call me to go towards him. Nonsense, do i look that stupid? Weird, i think malays liked me. =)
I went swimming later, blahs, i sucked. Although he returned to free-style now, he made me look like an idiot. I cant breathe, cant turn, cant flip. When i swim, he says i scoop water only. >.< That's insulting... Blah, blah, blah... lolx...

16/9/05 Safra meeting

2005-09-18T07:59:00.000-07:00

Friday i skipped my Chinese tuition, due to photography. My MPC chairman told me that there's a meeting in SAFRA Photography Club to celebrate Mid-Autumn festival. Lolx... This is weird... Obviously, i am the only kid, but when ppl walk ard and every one started pointing at me, treating me like aliens, it isn't very nice.

I took the record shots, and they are blur!! So paiseh.. Lolx.. It's Canon, so i dun really know how to adjust the functions. Btw, the camera is much more ex than mine. Not save to play with it... Then they bring us to a dark corner to take group photos, then i tried. In the end, i shouted, "Aiya, i dunno la, Raymond, u take." Later, my tchr approached me and said, "Why u didn't take jus now? Btw, u shouted quite loudly, it's embarrassing for a committee member to can't even take a picture."

OMG, i think i did smth wrong, didn't i? This morning too. I suaned Mr E.Tan a lot. Lolx... Anyway, i think i better apologise. See, i so nice.

Term 3 holidays

2005-09-14T23:25:00.000-07:00

Monday -- Emaths extra lesson
Tuesday -- Amaths extra lesson, swimming with Marion
Wednesday -- Chinatown and Drum performances shooting, MPC meeting
Thursday -- i bought Turtle
Friday -- Golf shooting, tuition
Saturday -- I bought Tortoise ( to give Turtle company), swimming lesson
Sunday -- MPC meeting, Chinatown photo Exhibition, Singapore river Lotus shooting

Wow, Does this sounds mad? i only mug a bit for the first 2 days, after that, i simply do nth and is out e whole day, all around Singapore trying to try out my D70s. =) This is quite cool, and one of the maddest things i have ever done. Let me talk about one of the shooting.

I took golf!! Golf ok? At NSRCC. There's quite a few MPs around and others are mostly 30+ years old ppl. This is the first time i stepped into a golf course, walking around like my house and sitting on the golf car (dunnoe e actual name). I even get to drive the car!! Lolx.. The control is simple, no gear, so jus step and go. It's a bit more difficult than Go-kart as there's up and down slopes and the paddle is more sensitive. I didn't bank into anything, i can swear that! lolx... did u ever take notice of the posture of ppl taking golf? The different backgrounds and the different lightings. Lolx... I cant catch the lightings!! The sun is directly above so quite difficult. In addition, most ppl wear caps. Oh ya, i wore a cap, then realised that e camera is too big to on e flash and allow me to see e viewfinder at the same time. This is funny. Hahaa..

Perhaps u guys might think that i am mad, but these are fun!! Can u imagine? Ppl allow u to go very close when they are playing golf. A kid driving the car and taking photographs. I was with an Uncle, Mr Lim, then they thot i am his kid loh.. Lolx... i am too young to look like a professional photographer. But this is good, they allow me to make mistakes. =) ok la.. late le.. i tired. Hahaaa.. Bye bye...

MBS trip

2005-09-01T20:44:00.000-07:00

After Cedar Teachers' Day celebration, I went back to MBS with Yu Juan, Ying Ting and Seok Han. Yu Juan's Mum drives us there, on the way, feeding us with chocolates. Lolx..

Back in MBs, nth seems different. I think this is because last year, i am back too. Or perhaps, i have been chatting with them, didn't realise at all. The renovations don't seem alien to me. However, there are a lot of chinese poetic words on the wall, a lot of short short kids.

I stepped into the canteen, somehow, it seems so unfamiliar. Nth changed, the tables, the benches, even the aunties. However, lesser ppl are back, i knew no one there. So, i went to e staff room, since Shi yi says that she's there. I saw Mdm Cheong (Mrs Kwek) and started chatting with her. She seemed much older, 5 years older... No matter what, since Pri 4, she did not teach me anymore.

Now, let me recall who i saw, how i feel abt every single one i remember.

Girls

Xin Yi -- She is so tall now, long hair, felt quite weird but somehow, her character did not change.

Petrina -- She is so so so short. Feng Kai stood veri close to her then look now, jus to prove that she's short.

Jane -- I think she's e only one shorter than me, haha.. Her ear ring so big, that's quite ugly.. Opps.. Haha...

Shi Yi -- I have been seeing her, not much change, but still as insensitive, and playful.. Full of nonsense and crap.

Lynette -- Heard that she like our shuai ge.. Lolx..

Jia Ling -- Erm.. Sounds abit more auntie? Haha.. i only walk pass her, but she was shouting and pointing. Lolx.. That's typical auntie action. Btw, i think i veri auntie too..

Charlotte -- Still as cute, as cubby... Charlotte, stay that way!!

Yvonne -- Still e cute and small look

Xiao Xian -- She looked veri stress during pri 1-3. But now, so cheerful, so happy.

Guys

Amos Chia -- Wow, shuai guy!! Showing off u got 6 pts for L1R5, can do sit and reach very well and shuai la. Sigh, say got 6 pec, i touch here touch there also dun have. But anyway, u' a good fren.

Amos Yong -- He seems so guai now, chatted to him onl some time ago, i think he is quite a good person to chat to.

Samuel -- i only saw him run thru the canteen, seemed quite short.

Kelvin -- Sorry, i tot u'r Desmond!! I got confused so how, u grow too much, quite tall now.

Jun Hong -- So stylish har, ur eyes, ur hair. But i think u'r much more mature. Although u still crack joke, u dun irritate me anymore.

Winston -- xiao di di... =) So wet blanket, left even earlier than me. Smoemore, kept saying that i am short, u know i how sad anot, lolx..

Han Jie -- Haha.. Still as short!! Win says u taller than me, but not really la.. Haha..

Desmond -- Erm.. Never talk to him, but he seemed quite cool.

Ming Jiang -- Quite shuai now, no wonder __a__o__e will like u. They played arm restling, quite strong har...

Benedict -- Quite short!! Lolx.. But he looked quite blur, quite rush

Eric Tan -- i dunno him!! But i think he quite good looking now, Elaine, good catch.

Feng Kai -- So tall! 179cm now. U better dun grow anymore.

Sean yuen -- You look so nerdy, haha.. but haven't been chating to u, dunno.

Dean -- Jus like Sean, look like a geek. U can study? hahaa... Btw, he is good to play with.

Ming Hao -- Quite tall now, but didn't talk to.

Many ppl didn't come back, esp my 2 good friends. Guys grow so tall now, guls are turning choi-er. =) Hope that i will be back next yr, and all others too..

being a loner

2005-08-26T03:13:00.000-07:00

weird weird weird... I am getting more and more weird. Now, i preferred to be alone, or rather, so how, i am always alone. 3S has not much connections with me. i prefer 2P. During recess, i would go alone, or with 2P ppl. I selom go out with any 3S ppl. However, i could communicate with them and play with them. I mean, so of them.

However, all this seems so unnatural. Although the BE report says that i like to be alone, i still dun understand myself. Being so talkative, so creative, so irritating, how can i wanna be alone? i need ppl to talk to, to make fun of, to try my new tricks. However, i realised that other than praying, i can still talk to myself. other than this, i can even laugh at my own invention and come out with my own communication system. Not with soft toys and all the childish things obviously.

How? i am afraid that i will be anti-social 1 day. I am afraid that i will be sitting alone, looking at my own work and smiling to myself. Whenever i see ppl who sit by the road side, smiling to themselves, talking to the air, fear grows within me. I am afraid i will be one of them in 50 years time.

Ppl.. pls try to communicate with me, i will try to feel less irritated and talk to u all normally. Thanks.. Blahs.. This is nonsense... Mountainturtle = anti-social? No one will see to it, who will believe? blahs.. Rubbish!!

I am so fortunate!!

2005-08-14T17:32:00.000-07:00

i think i am veri fortunate. It started all the way from i am in kindergarten. =) i tot of this when i am having dengue in e hospital, too bored, u see.

Ok, from young, ppl ard me treat me very well. The aunties and uncles in the neighbourhood, the relatives in my family and even e ppl who walk by and buy things. Teachers in my kindergarten liked me a lot. Till now, we still keep in contact. In class, i am e only one who can walk ard and disturb ppl. Although no matter if i do smth wrong, e blames will be on me. That's because i am prominent. Lolx...

In primary school, other than e EL tchr that i hate, most ppl dun realli hate me. I could mix well in e girls and guys group and most ppl talk to me, play with me. Even e tuckshop auntie chat to me during their free time. Now, when i go back to primary school, tchrs can recognise me. Some could even call out my name. i am lucky, even in acdemic wise. i got 2nd in primary school, despite not scoring very well. In my tuition centre (Jiang), e tchrs who taught me b4 will even call me when they see me. Obviously, other than been noisy in class, i am quite obedient.

That's all in e past. Now, e feeling of fortunate is much clearer. Other than getting 2 awards in photography, i got third in class this sesmester. Then, when i am in e hospital, many ppl sms-ed me, some brought homework back for me. When i got back, i received a card from Mr E.T and a card from e class, everyone wrote smth.
In my photography society, ppl there dote on me. Everything i ask, they wouldn't laugh and teach me willingly. I requested for a camera, but like wat i say, my bro and sis wanted a lap-top. My bro now decided that he would give up e tot of a lap-top for me to owe my camera. Wow, i suddenly feel that i got a good bro. Although he never say a thing, also laugh at me for being fat, he cared for me quite a lot.

In school, frenz and tchrs cared abt me. When i first got back, Mr R.Goh, Mr E.Tan, Ms J.Chia, Ms J.Tan, Mdm Nur, Ms Wong (e P.E tchr), etc all asked abt me. At least, they bother to ask. Haha.. btw, Mr Suresh (sp?) told me not to come, he's afraid i endangered other ppl's life. >.< Lilin, Seok Han, Si Ying, YY, Maple, Grace, Wei Ling, Violet, Cherissa etc, thanks. for my class, Wan Ling, Shi Min, Mation, Cher Lia etc, they also tell me abt hw, esp Wan Ling.

My Sis, she's not so lucky. She got 275 for PSLE, 6 for 'O', 4 straight As for 'A', 1500 for SAT, yet she cant get scholarship. Every time she was sent to competition, she wil get 4th or 2nd or smth liddat. Never first. That's damn unlucky. Other than blessed with IQ, she has got not much luck.

My bro, he is damn smart, yet that he's veri slack. He knows a lot of things. HTML, guitar, etc, he dun need anyone to teach, yet he can do it.

Everyone of us is blessed in one way or another. My fortune lies with e care of ppl ard me. So, for those who are nice to me, thanks, u'r my fortune.

My pathetic school work

2005-08-13T15:45:00.000-07:00

Ohshh... It has been rather long since i last blogged. It's all because of my bro. My Sis took away e lap-top, then my bro moves e comp top his room. =( no access to every computer. Now, i moved it to the living room, can chat and watch TV at e same time. Lolx

Anyway, our Photo Exhibition has started. Feel Free to drop by the bomb shelter!! =) i got quite a lot of photos there. =)

Oh ya, i didnt go for jogging nor PE this few days. I still feel veri giddy!! 1.5 or double image, isn't this cool? Everyone looks quite fat. Lolx.. Anyway, 3S, thanks for the card. I calculated, everyone wrote smth... Mr E.T gave me a card too. thanks..

Let's talk abt results!! I got 7/20 for EMaths!! This is e first time i failed for maths in my entire life!! This is nonsense. i shocked myself, E.T and and everyone i told. Lolx.. This is damn funni. What does this means? It symbolises that i have to score A1 for the up coming common test. For the other class test, it muz be a sure full marks or nearby there. =( Sounded stressful.

Anyway, i think i got a lot to catch up.
SS/Hist -- Nth much.
Geog. -- E whole chapter of Pop.
Physics -- e upcoming test
Chem. -- e whole chapter on environment
Emath -- chords and bearing
Amaths -- remainder factor theorm
Chinese -- dunno
English -- Port folio

This is damn sad. For chemistry, i am totally loss. For physics, i somehow catch up. For Amaths, i think it is still ok. For others, they required a lot of reading. See, e veri obedient me is here to blog and not mug. Lolx.. Ok la, i go mug (like real) now.. zZZ.. Veri tired!! i have ben drinking coffee to stay awake ok? How sad? =(

Dengue fever

2005-08-06T17:16:00.000-07:00

Friday, Sat, Sunday all in bed. I have been having fever. 40.5'C anf got an injection on the butt. Lolx.. i didn't know abt e injection until my mum told me. I fainted, sort of, hahaa... That's for friday. Sat and sun, i totally sleep thru. Most of the time, i didn't even wake up. And for Sunday, i was vomiting thru, so i went for blood test, but nth wrong.

Monday morn, i went back to sch for TA. Lolx... I have MC ok? See, so nice of me. Tuesday night, my doctor cant stand it anymore, so he wrote me a referral letter and sent me to hospital. Dehydration, i loss 4kg in 5 days. =) So i am in Changi Hospital. Accident and Emergency department isn't that efficient anyway. i waited quite long. From 8+ til 9+ then see e doctor. Then i waited for another 1.5hr for my blood report. 11+pm, i am still in hospital, with a 38.8'C fever yet no one cares. This is so lame loh.. E doctor says nth wrong, can go home. zZZ... Waste my time!! my platelets is 127 that time. i dun care, so i chose to stay in e hospital.

1am i got my bed!! bed 14, ward 46, level 6
3am they on my light, then push the drip to me.
4am a doctor came and insert e drip. He asked why i so late stil haven't sleep. >.< How to sleep with the light on?
6am They woke me up for x-ray
the rest of the day, that's quite sad, everyone walks ard, no one cares abt me. U know, i need to call e nurse whenever i go toilet. On my bed, they put,"CRIB", completely rest in bed. I cant even go for a walk. lolx...

Ok la, i stayed in hospital for 4 days, tuesday to friday. Yeah, now i got my freedom. Veri tired, i also dunno wat i am typing. Bye, i go zZZ now. =)

my irritating auntie

2005-07-23T23:58:00.000-07:00

I know this is very evil, very inhuman to some extent, but I muz say! I can’t stand my auntie anymore!! I hoped that she loses her jobs and got sent back to Malaysia and from there, never come out again!! I don’t want to see her, I don’t want to hear anything from her, I don’t want to allow her in my house again!
Now, my father allowed his siblings, my oldest auntie and youngest uncle to live in our house. They paid nth, no rental fees, no $$ for electricity etc. >.< That’s not the point. It is because of them, we can’t move home at first and stay in the shop house. Then each of them got a room themselves. WTH! My 3rd uncle still knows that it is appreciate to pay, he only pay a hundred per month, but he’s in Malaysia now. The thing is, it is not the $$, but the responsibility. My youngest uncle is married. He is buying his house very soon, no savings, nothing. Then, he owes credit card Company $13 thousand and my father settled for him, again. Nonsense man, I think my father bu hui pei er nv qi si, shi pei ta de di di qi si. How sad?
Now comes to my auntie. I want to disown her!! Everyday, she will create problems, damn biased towards my bro. Guls are inferior to her, unless u can study. >.< She went Malaysia today and got back at 12+am. Then, her extremely irritating act started.
She scolded me for blocking the way as the lap-top charger is on the floor. What can I do?
She says I never water the plants, which I did. And she’s drowning my cactus!!
She reprimanded me for not placing the clothes into the water to soak b4 washing, so I am dirty.
She concluded that I never bath cos no underwear there. It’s b’cos I washed it myself.
She blamed me for using the net to place my clothes, which my Mum told me to. She says I am not considerate and selfish b’cos she wanted to use too. The fact is, there’s 3, I only use 1.
She even says that the door is not locked, that’s my fault. But e last to enter the house is she herself, and she only realized the door is not lock after her bathe. That’s amazing, e thief claiming to see a thief.
Then, she says I never let her rest, she muz nag jus b’cos she is home a bit later than normal and I messed up everything.

Ahahh... What kind of auntie is this!! Got serious AP de Old woman, I think her hormones got problems and her mind set is totally wrong and old-fashioned.
My sis always reminds me that she is not married, she we have to take care of her when she’s own. What an unnecessary burden to us, to Singapore. >.< If can, I will really abandon her, really. I truly dun like her, although all relatives says she liked me most, my foot!
Am I supposed to say she is a plain loser, good in nth, and live in a world of her own, thinking that wearing very tight clothes and revealing her “swollen” arms with exaggerated makeup is very chio. WTH loh, like that will look nice that no ugly ppl liao. 50+ still like that, always buy 20+ ppl’s clothes, no fashion sense and still dare to say others.
Then, she will ask for opinion if she wears what is nicer. The fact is, all not nice. That time I told her her jacket is very tight (the buttons are almost bursting apart), then she ignored me. Lter my bro scolded me for saying her in front of him and make her feel awkward. I am just stating a fact. It’s knid of me to tell her rather than got laughed at outside rite?
That day she calls me to try her shirt, then later she tells my sis I always wear her shirt, tell her to be careful. I talked to Winston on the phone, normally for hours, she tells my Mum I am trying to date him. What nonsense?! Then guls call she also tell my Dad to beware of who I liked. zZZ.. Can die?

My family all thinks that I am extra, useless, and unreasonable. Primary 6, I wanted a handphone, they refused. It’s until e PSLE results show that I can do it then they decided to treat it as a reward. My bro wanted lap-top, then my Mum and Dad decides very quickly to get one. I wanted a camera of my own, it takes 2.5 yrs to decide that I deserved one. They knew, right from the start, I will do my best for everything. But they also think that I can’t achieve it, for I am more stupid! Every time they decided to get me smth, it’s simply b’cos of the guilt they feel for not believing that I could achieve it. For everything, really everything.

Take now for example. My Dad agreed on buying me D70s and asked me to check it out. Hello, I have been checking the same model for 1+yr. From D70 to D70s. >.< I hoped I am thinking too much, but I realized he agreed because my sis agrees and I am truly showing interests and results. The MPC (Macpherson Photography Club) has proved my interest in this field. Since they are the pro here, my parents had to accept that. So, I believed I will get my camera during the photo fest coming up on Sept. but now, my mum disapporve. in e end, i dunno, i dun wan to know.

Sigh, poor me, living in such a distrusting and unsupportive family, plus a group of truly selfish and irresponsible relatives, that’s sad. :’(

Meet-e-parents session

2005-07-23T11:52:00.000-07:00

This is my 50th entry!! That's fast. Lolx...
Erm.. We have our meet-the-parents session on Friday. I forced my mum there. Hahaa.. She agreed because that time they blamed me for losing the camera and later realised it was with my brother. How pathetic.

Anyway, my Mum talks to Mrs Low (FT), Ms Lizah (SS/Hist), Ms Wong (Chin.), and Mdm Koh(last yr FT).
Mrs Low says my everything seemed ok except the EL section. Ms Tan always asys that my grammar and tenses are not very well managed. I wil try to get it better, asap. I vow that from now, 23/7/05 -- end of yr, i will put in great efforts and make significant improvement. I mean it.
Ms Lizah, i was forced to see her. >.< She didn't say much but i still dun like her. I could do nth but to study.
Ms Wong says that i am nice just that my body seemed a bit weak. Then, she says i am very obedient and responsive. =) All praises, no insults at all.
Mdm Koh damn evil. She says so loudly that she knows i forced my Mum here. =( That's sad. Others parents come so eagerly, yet mine, needed to use threats to get them here. Mdm Koh says that i am very talkative and playful in class. Ms Wong got a shocked. Lolx.. I tot i am like that all the time? Erm.. That's smth interesting.

Like usual, i take photos with ppl etc. =) e sch at night is attractive. Almost silent, warm, enclosing and different. I wanted to staya while longer, just to linger ard and feel the differences. Too bad, Mum is rushing home.

Oh ya, i smsed Mr Khoo abt e Photo competition. Then he called me, at 7am in the mori=ning. I got a shocked. Lolx.. Who on earth calls ppl at such a timing when it is not a working day? Only hi. Lolx.. He says he is happy, so got too excited and jus dial the phone. Ok, reason accepted. Luckily, my sis got a prize presentation, so i need to wake up early to take photos for her. Lolx.. i am a home photographer now. I wanted Nikon D70s!

3rd in Photo competition

2005-07-19T17:55:00.000-07:00

Am i supposed to say "opps?" I jus say that swimming seemed more impt than photography and this few days i am still thinking abt it. Now, e "HeritageFest Photography competition" called me and told me that i won the third prize.

WOW!! It shocked me out of my life. I felt e same as getting 36.5 for Emaths and after checking, i got 40/40. Seriously, my mind went blank. Then that guy/gul went, "Hello, hello, are you attending the ceremony?" Haha.. Yes, obviously yes!! Btw, it's at Suntec City Atrium at 3.30pm this sunday. Anyone wanna go? lolx... btw, Siying, Happy b'day!!

Anyway, i found out that MBS was awarded e prize for submitting the most numbers of prints to e competition. When the results are posted on the net, i will add in e link here. Then u can see my name. Sounded lame and exgarrating but it is realli that happy.

Oh ya, e prize is $200 and a teamsingapore premium. I dunno what's that. =) Last yr, i won a NYAA competition and got 16 rolls of films only. Lolx.. And the films were shared among ppl in e school. Haha.. So lame loh.. However, this is so damn cool ok? I so high now, i dun even know wat i am typing. Ahahh.. i am suppose to mug Hist. now!! Lolx.. Ahahh...

Photography VS Swimming

2005-07-17T19:26:00.000-07:00

Erm.. Today is a Sunday, so i went to TM myself to buy some presents. in e end, i bought $20+ of chocolate ok? U guys will receive them pretty soon if ur bday is coming. Si ying, i dunnoe wat to buy u. So wil give u choco first and smth else later. i spent $36.30 today. Lolx.. That's a lot.

Anyway, also went to photography society today. They were talking so adult-ly. Oviosly, not RAed. But they were talking abt how realistic e commercial world is. About all e pricing, pix taken, type of displayment etc. That's not veri suitable for me.

I think i find out smth. A guy came and gave a speech on e defn of photography and ask where we are now. The reason why we take photo when there's tri-llion of photos. Why we go for a thousand plus camera when a $400+ camera allows a journalist to publish his work.

This set me thinking. How impt Photography is to me. A hobby, a game, an interest, or perhaps a destiny. U might go, "WTH is she talking abt? wanna take pix then take la." No, it's not that simple. I suddenly realised i just stepped into photography. Too young to give critics. Too lousy to display my work. That's sad. Swimming seemed a easier choice for me. It gave me a stronger feeling. Not knowing where i stand in photography seemed much smaller than not being able to swim a few laps of good breaststroke. I can say i will prefer to go and have a swim then to tke my camera out jus to shoot.

Shit la, i suddenly lost e determination to get a camera. I felt that i dun worth it. Then now, my parents were like trying to get me one asap after my sis's sch adminstration. Dunno.. Yea, let's wait and see ok? =)

1st swimming lesson

2005-07-16T22:31:00.000-07:00

Sigh… How sad… Do u remember me saying that I have signed up for swimming course again just to correct my strokes? Smth horrible happened. My coach, whom I neva call him a coach b’cos he’s too young, I dun feel like making him sounds old, was like correcting every single stroke and every single part. I think he is very observant. He actually realized my left side is not as good as my right side. Also, he could see that my 1st breaststroke kick after breathing is worse than e 2nd and 3rd. That’s cool.

Like what I always say, a good tchr is a good form of motivation to strive harder, just like failing SS/Hist and still trying very hard. I was talking to Ms Chia abt Maple that day. When I see her, I suddenly got a strong feeling that I can’t afford to fail e next Hist test. Although Ms Chia wont really care, but I think I let her down. That’s why I can’t afford to fail. For the time being, I can’t find any reason that I can motivate myself to mug smth which made me feel so gruesome.

Anyway, I went to teach my cousin’s cousin for tuition. It’s because my sis can’t make it so I have to substitute her. I felt so stupid. I can’t even do pri 6 EL. >.< Ms Tan says my tenses still could not make it. I am going to get a grammar book, starting from Pri 5. I think Pri 5 sounded fine to me. Lolx… I hated EL when I am young anyway. So now I should try to get it right. See, so determined, must learn from me. Lolx… Ok la, gtg, bye! I am quite sure no one reads. Lolx…

>.<

2005-07-13T11:04:00.001-07:00

Erm... My lame jounrnal again. Sunday my family (- father) went to OG and then eat steam boat. Lolx.. that place is dirty, e food aren't nice!! And i vomited in e end. That's how sad. Monday is a rather busy day. Ms Ng gives us an easy time and so i got e energy to go swimming. At night, like duh, got yoga. Btw, Maple is hospitalised in some ulu ulu hospital and refuses to let me visit her. Whatever!!

E angry thing is, my sis, callled at 12+ to ask if e camera is with me. WTH, why is it always me? i asked my bro and he said not with him, sleepily. But he could still stand up and throw e shoe bag at me and shoo me out of the room. So, i went down and look for it. Every blame is on me, it seemed that i am e onli one who use e camera, e onli one who last upload e stuffs. This is mad!! E cable and batt. are all well-kept. I am sane!! So, i am veri sure that it is not me. After a while, my sis called up and my bro picked up. then she satrted scolding and he finally woke up and said that e cam is with him. that's e end. he tookn it to take himself, MCP.

Can u see why i prefer a more pro and personasl cam now? i am e one who used e most, for e right purpose and for e best it can be. Who is e one uploading, who is e one who clean e lens and who is e one who charge e batt. It';s me!! My sis even says that how could my mum buy mi a $2000 cam when i can even lose my home cam. But it's my bro. my Mum also says that i am e most careless, and my bro blamed me for waking him up. How unfair!! This is stupid!! my Mum even need mi to force her to Meet-the-parent session. For my sis and bro, shewil go willingly loh.. How unfair, i am e underpreviliage person at home!!

Tues we got oral, it's fine but i got bad mood. zZZ.. So, let's see how things goes la.. Anyway, Miss Wong not here, Mr Chin is taking over e lesson, lolx.. That's damn free. Oh ya, Mr Alvin Lim is taking us for Amaths, what a torture. sigh.. See how sad things can be, i am having cramps now anyway, hack man. Oh ya, my sis cant teach tuition, then i take over. Does this sounded amazing? Lolx... In sch now for EL lesson, bye!!

2005-07-13T11:04:00.000-07:00

Erm... My lame jounrnal again. Sunday my family (- father) went to OG and then eat steam boat. Lolx.. that place is dirty, e food aren't nice!! And i vomited in e end. That's how sad. Monday is a rather busy day. Ms Ng gives us an easy time and so i got e energy to go swimming. At night, like duh, got yoga. Btw, Maple is hospitalised in some ulu ulu hospital and refuses to let me visit her. Whatever!!

E angry thing is, my sis, callled at 12+ to ask if e camera is with me. WTH, why is it always me? i asked my bro and he said not with him, sleepily. But he could still stand up and throw e shoe bag at me and shoo me out of the room. So, i went down and look for it. Every blame is on me, it seemed that i am e onli one who use e camera, e onli one who last upload e stuffs. This is mad!! E cable and batt. are all well-kept. I am sane!! So, i am veri sure that it is not me. After a while, my sis called up and my bro picked up. then she satrted scolding and he finally woke up and said that e cam is with him. that's e end. he tookn it to take himself, MCP.

Can u see why i prefer a more pro and personasl cam now? i am e one who used e most, for e right purpose and for e best it can be. Who is e one uploading, who is e one who clean e lens and who is e one who charge e batt. It';s me!! My sis even says that how could my mum buy mi a $2000 cam when i can even lose my home cam. But it's my bro. my Mum also says that i am e most careless, and my bro blamed me for waking him up. How unfair!! This is stupid!!

Tues we got oral, it's fine but i got bad mood. zZZ.. So, let's see how things goes la.. Anyway, Miss Wong not here, Mr Chin is taking over e lesson, lolx.. That's damn free. Oh ya, Mr Alvin Lim is taking us for Amaths, what a torture. sigh.. See how sad things can be, i am having cramps now anyway, hack man. Oh ya, my sis cant teach tuition, then i take over. Does this sounded amazing? Lolx... In sch now for EL lesson, bye!!

Energy's Concert

2005-07-10T11:02:00.000-07:00

Cool!1 This is e first time think "Milk" is sexy. Lolx.. Weird describtion, but that's how i feel. Then, i suddenly realised Shu Wei always go out of tune. Lolx... That's funni. Kunda was always bullied when they were talking and Ah di cried so quickly. Anyway, i dun really feel as high as e first concert, "Power". i think it's because of my enthusiuam. I did buy like dunno how mani of their cds. i think i onli got 3 out of 6. Anyway, they sang 26 songs in total. Milk still says they sang 30+ when it is 23. We are family so cute, it ends well. I thot Wo Men will be e ending, then everyone will cry, but they liven out e atmosphereand everyone was happy when they left.

Btw, i saw Sly and Leon, e M4. i was watching superstar before i go. Then i even tell my bro i think Leon e best, cause he is e cutest. Lolx... But he cant realli sing. =) How sad, he wasout.

Anyway, i start vomiting e moment i reached home. This was mad!! I never vomitted for so long, to e extend that my throat aches now. Btw, got ppl says throat aches? i think sane ppl wil call in sore throat. nevermind, i am insane, i mean, special. =) Anyway, i am damn sure it was gastric, but my Mum dun let me eat actal!!! Then she boiled me some ginger with brown sugar. But like, hello!! Ginger is heaty, later i nose-bleed how? >.< So poor thing. But all these are ok, i am fine now. Later i muz go to e chinese doctor. Can i stop eating medicine? i think i wil get him to use aperpuncture or whatever. Lolx.. But that sounded scary. ok la, i wana watch 11am Channel 8 show, bye!!

more =) than =(

2005-07-08T22:55:00.000-07:00

Hey, hey, hey!! I am so so happie and so so so depressed.
For depressing things, dun scold me, that's how i feel.
1. i cant comprehend Mr Surseh (sp, i think.) Amaths's solution. Am i suppose to say SHIT! lolx..
2. Ms Lizah always stare at me. And also, she always look at me at e edge of her eyes. i feel like as if she is depising me. That's how sad.
3. So mani ppl are getting sick, must take care ok? If necessary, eat Vit C, i often eat it, esp when i got flu or after a swim. It works, trust me.
4. i vomited so mani times after eating e medicine. That's stupid. Lolx... Dun worry, i garantee i am not pregrant, cos i jus got an X-ray scan, which can prove that. =) Haha.. i am crapping.

For e happie things, tat sounds so much nicer.
1. e children at e Child Care Centre (i do CIP there) are suddenly veri nice to me. They actually fight to get me to teach them, play with me and wanted to team with me when we were playing some lame lame games. :) that's encouraging, normally i dun even want to teach some ppl, but they seemed much nicer now.
2. We are hosting an election for CCA leaders. Lolx.. There's onli 3 sec 3s, so we got e sec 2s involved. Apart from that, i often write letters to my juniors. But i stopped for some time as i am just lazy. Lolx. Then when i started writing again, my junior actually reply saying that she's happy as her fav. Senior writes to her. That's so =)
3. My Photography instructor called me and asked if i wanted to join a photo competition. e one i sent in 2P swimming photos. e thing isn't abt competition, it is abt e notifications he gave. It simply means that i am of some standard, or perhaps e topics i chose are more relevant. =)
4. PE is total madness. Can u imagine someone who wanted to vomit can finish e soft ball game or something? Lolx... That's almost impossible. But poor Ren Hui, next week i wil do with her, if can.

b4 u say i am preaching again, i muz say, i really understand that when a door closes, e other opens; a little kindness brings u a long way; a word of encouragement might be e force to drive u thru e journey. Thanks for being my encouragement/ predator.

Boring day, boreD me..

2005-07-05T18:58:00.000-07:00

Erm... Maple says my blog is getting more and more boring.. Is it true? Lolx.. Anyway, i myself tot so too. Haha... Again, let me brief u on what i did. Sunday is a boring day. Monday morning i went gym and at night i went for yoga. That's quite boring too. Lolx.. Btw, i saw e track members jogging ard there, =).

Btw, e yoga tchr wanted us to do shoulder stand 2 weeks later, is not it amazing? Look at my Mum, if she did that, my Dad will be shocked. Oh ya, there's funny name coming up. An action called e Fish Pose, that means u cross ur legs n onli ur head and legs are on e floor. Then, got Baby-sitting position and camel pose, one leaning forward and e other backwards respectively. Haha.. For so pose, some aunties cant bend, then they will stuck there. Oh ya, i can touch e ground with my hands from e back now. Cool rite? But i was not daring enough, so i needed e sofa to help me climb down.

Are some of u lost? Erm.. Doesn't matter. For tml Chem and Emaths test, i haven't started studying yet, i just woke up. =) ok la, i must check my photos and sending in for competition. Remember e swimming photos we took? I am inside, but i am cropping and sending it under my name for a photo competition named as "Precious moments". Grace, u r e photographer, but cropping is more impt. Lolx.. ok, gtg...

3 days journey

2005-07-02T20:30:00.000-07:00

It has been quite a few days b4 i blogged. Thursday i took half a day off, just b4 e third period and Jogging. Lolx.. Monday for TAF we did nth, so i laterally missed all physical activity. =) i went to KK specialist that day. E doctor says that it is most probably due to irritable bowel, conclusion, stress. Hahaa... Then he wanna an X-ray, so i take loh... At first e nurse/ doctor was like trying to locate my bones. Later, she asked me to breathe in and in e end she just gave up. Lolx.. Another doctor came and within a few seconds she is done! Lolx.. So, not my fault. Btw, i am 68.2kg now, eat liao then vomit, so reduce a bit.

Friday, i wascheated to tie dragonfly for e CLDDS. Lolx... Btw, Eric Tan will be back, how's that? YY wasn't veri happy. =P But i us say, Darren Chin can teach somehow teach. At least, he is quite attentive to details and tried to understand our thinkinh instead of jus dumpingus with what he knows. ot like e sec 1 trainner (=X), also HL how much he knows. Oh ya, my chinese tuition teacher changed back to my Pri 4 teacher. =) She actually remembered me. Cool rite?

Today, i went swimming in e Morning, 9-10am. i cycled there ok? =) it has been long since i experience e dashing effect. Btw, i felt that my swimming is much slower. i couldn't sense e joyous hormones in me working. =( i guessed that i wasnt fit enough after a few slacking weeks. 30 laps in 50min. Afterthat, i saw a guy with one 1 leg. That's cool. i think he can swim too. He was talking to a life guard while i am swimming. Then, i went to eat Mee Siam and saw him again. =)

At 3pm, i went Chua Chu Kang with my cousins and gugu, guzhang. It's swimming ppol is more like a play ground. So, we played that and eat at Clementi afterthat. I think they are trying to murder me with food. Oh ya, btw, they drove a lorry, so everytime a cousin and i sit at the back. I saw Wang Jian Fu!! I swear!! i was "peeping" into everyone's car day-dreamingly. Then, i saw someone waving at me. Lolx.. i think he tot that i saw him thus he waved. But if he didn't wave, i wouldn't know it is him. =) Lolx.. i often meet ppl i know outside. Other than Primary school friends, there are idols and teachers. Opps.. Hey, i dun gossip if i saw whatever ok? i onli gossip when ppl tell me. lolx..

Ok, bye.. i going to sleep now, wil eat Vit C first as i am having a flu.

Gossips..

2005-06-29T18:37:00.000-07:00

Emm.. Today practically is a slacker day as we almost did nth. There are 6 "new" teachers introduced. Weird... some of them look so familiar, i think they come and go quite a lot of them, esp e white shirt tall guy. He taught Literature and ppl are full of praises for him. Lolx.. nikki says that her class got e "Wow, so shuang" exclamation when he stepped in. Lolx.. Do u guys think u scared him? i didn't really take notice if he's good looking, but i could feel that he kept walking past our class room. Lolx..

Oh ya, i realised many ppl hate Mr Chin, lolx.. As our tchrs aren't there, we are talking abt which tchr we like and hate. So many ppl mentioned his name. Obviously, u know where it belongs to. Erm.. Reasons are because ppl say he is a veri (i think a bit onli la) beng, veri rude and arrogant. Not sure, and i dun want to speak up for him liao, u guys are forgetting that i dun like guys. Lolx... But he isn't that bad afterall, try talking nonsense to him, it's quite fun.
(P.S. ppl who liked him, read e gossips)

This recess, everyone is like flipping thru my photos albums, mainly flooded with 2P'sphotos. Lolx.. This is quite cool, ppl could see e looks of us when we are still Sec 1, 2. Lolx..

For CCA today, all we did is to label e photos, i realised i took rather nice shoots. Btw, i had forgotten to keep my album, now, i dunno where it is. Lolx... I will try to get it tml, i think it is in e lab or smth..

(Gossip 1) For my class, 2 teachers are absent today, Amaths n chem teachers. Ms Chia is ill for 2 days, Mdm Koh took a 3 days leave and Ms Tan is having a rather bad flu. Lolx... All those teachers that are close are ill. Females are more vulnerable than male teachers. 10 teachers are on ML ok?

(Gossip 2) Someone told me that she saw Mr Chin and his gf (think quite chio) at e paya Lebar MRT behaving intimidatingly (got such a word?).. Then, like duh, it was spreaded around and most knows. But he also not veri cautious abt these. He talks to my junior's fren abt how nice his gf is and all e nonsense. Lolx.. Opps.. Did i say smth wrong? But ya, why so stupid, teachers always get caught, Mr Khoo is e other one who always got caught. Mr Khoo more honest, he brought her (Now, Mrs Khoo) to Toa Payoh, where cedarians flooded e place. For sure, he will get caught. Haha..

1st day of sch -- :) + Mr Chin = :| Poor me lolx..

2005-06-27T14:47:00.000-07:00

Ermm... First day of school.. Lolx.. That's cool... So gald to step on e school's ground. Felt so impt to feel e ground and hug the pillars. Lolx.. I met Mrs Chia on e way in to sch, so i think i am e first to know that she's back. =)

Anyway, i realised Mr Eric Tan is not here in e morning, then suddenly saw Mr Darren Chin when i turned back when they say that e clock is slow. Lolx.. Felt so cheated. I rather he not come back loh.. Although onli 4 weeks, but, ya, still felt cheated. Qi Bian Xiao Hai De " Lao Ren". Opps.. Shouldn't reveal his age.. Lolx..

TAF is veri boring, or i shall say, extremely slack. We sat there and chit-chat. That's all. Lolx.. i think it's because Ms Ng is not here. Haha.. Then, obviously, early dimissal from TAF, so i went to e track to find el, Maple they all. So, i happened to meet Chin there. Lolx.. He says so loudly that i sent him an email n suan him. Lolx.. =) He is e one who revealled that i know his email, if ppl there asked, can i give? Lolx.. Anyway, i know his age from there.

Oh ya, since Mr E.Tan not here, there need a relief teacher. Emaths is after Amaths. When i saw Chin waiting outside my class, obviously got e "Opps.. WTH" reaction. i think Marion and i responded to his appearance that way, so he stepped back. Haahaaa.. His facial reaction is funni, like stepped on mines and tried to move back before it explodes. Then, he tried to act fierce when he got in, but obviously, he failed to. How to look fierce when ppl like Sam, Natasha, Me, Marion etc know him so well. e suaiest thing is, i am emaths rep, he stil says it's him that is suai. That's pathetic. in addition, i am so used to talking to him rudely, in chinese etc. Lolx.. So weird ok?

Btw, i know him so well because he's Mr Khoo's good friend, and just like Mr Khoo, always gossip with students. Not impt, lolx.. i am not e one who like(d) him. so, it got nth to do with me. Anyway, why some ppl revealed that to him? Ppl in 3H, lolx... Aiya, 3 lessons only, wouldn't die so easily (4 others i dunnoe, bring tissue, in case nose bleed)and obviously, he added so vibrant to our over-noisy class. Lolx, is that smth good?

2P BBQ/slow me

2005-06-23T13:26:00.000-07:00

Erm.. Tues is 2P BBQ, though there's little ppl, but it's still quite fun.. Although, ya, some weird feelings are felt. I will develop e photos then if u guys wanted, jus tell me, i will help u all to develop... See, i so nice.. Lolx...

Then ytd, YY and i went swimming. Maple cant go as she has smth arousing her. Lolx.. I realised i am damn slow... 2.05min for 2 laps.. This can hardly pass gold, let alone Gold Star... anyway, we onli swim 10+ laps and went children pool. Hahaa... That's damn slack..

Btw, school is reopening soon, are u all happy? U know, i kept dreaming of having classes... Lolx.. So happy.. E onli sad thing is, i saw Mr Toh as our tchr. Weird.. Then i saw a lot of bottle plants and everything seemed so peaceful. Then i heard THK's voice then i woke up. Hahaa.. That's funni... Ok la, nth much to say, need to mug Chemistry as i even forgot e reactions of chemicals. So, i will not talk too much and prepare 4 things... =) See ya in school!!

-depressed depressed depressed-

2005-06-20T02:37:00.000-07:00

Ytd, i went to Photography Society (MPCC) Tea Session. i realli learn a lot!! At first i wanted to join them to do night shooting at Orhard, but as my Sis brought e camera out and i got no equipment like Tripod, Cable release etc, i didn't go. Then i got so frastrated, in addition to stress, it's e stomach cramp.

Also, from there, i have decided to either get a Canon EOS 350D or Nikon D70. Both have almost e same function and thus, i like both. But the cost is a bit steep. $1900++. My Mum is considering as i really shoot a lot and she cant stand e developing fee.

Then, when i got home, i decided to talk to my bro abt e camera, hoping that he agrees that i can get it. But the thing is, he sucks. That realli makes me wonder if i am his sis. He always calls me "Xiao Pang", i didn't realli take it to heart. But, how could a Bro tells me, "Photography is a waste of Money, a camera shld cost less than $1000, if it's above that, it's mean for lap top." Wow.. i cried. Not because he disagreed to my stand, but he insulted something that weighs a tonne to me.

I believe u guys can see, i am a Jack of all trades, perhaps not even Jack. e few things that proves that i can waste Oxygen in this Earth are, Swimming, Maths, Science, and Phtography. What eles m i good in? i cant sing, i cant dance, i cant write, icant speak logically, i cant understand music. Haha.. i am nth. It's onli Photography. Even ppl in MPCC says that i am good, i can understand things that even some adults couldn't. Hahaa... Photography is a waste of money, then i am a waste of sources, what's e pt i am here. By typing this, i wasted electricity, brain cell, oxygen, materials and alot of surces. Just kill me to save all that. Hahaa.. Not funni at all!

Sorry for making u a rubbish bin, but, i felt so depressed. It's worst than failing SS/Hist. Can u see e link from Photography to me? Can u see e link from Maths/sci to me? Same logic. Same understand. Same reason. I thought thru. i wil give myself half ayr, jus to prove that i can do well in studies, in Photography, in Swimming. I promised God.

I dunno a thing, am i mad?

2005-06-18T02:26:00.000-07:00

i cant sleep again.. That's sad. it's 2am, Sat morning now. I guess i wil do some reading which would sure make me tired. Whether a not i will fall asleep after that, i dunno.

Anyway, my dunnoe where relatives came and some other relatives treated us to Crystal Jade, TM. From there, i realised that there's a gap between my siblings and myse;f. i am quite sure of that. But whether it's a age gap, a generation gap or a topic gap, i dunno. How sad? On e way home, we were taking bus, and each of us occupies 2 seats as there were few ppl. e journey is quiet, extremely.

As we took 65, it passed Safra, Mavis, Shiyi's house and MBS. They seemed so familiar, they contain my memories. Perhaps i am too emotional, but i could feel e joy in me, root of joy = unknown. I think it's like wat ppl say, "when u'r desperate, everything is nice." Am i feeling that?

When i got home, i asked my Mum, "do i have any siblings?" if my bro were to speak, he wil say that i am doing stupid thing, if i wanna do watever, jus do it. Death is e best. Woww, so i concluded that i got no siblings.

I went back to 6-floor, then i wrote a card 4 Fathers' Day. I cried in e process, why? i dunno. And then, since i cant sleep, i came down to e shop and write this. B4 this, i am playing with Chaster. Did u know how happy he is to see me? He jumped at me, at my Mum, at my Dad. It's rare to see him that happy. then, he followed me up and down, up and down. He's truly happy. Who can be so happy just to see me?Only him, using e simplest way to convey his happiness.

What kind of siblings i have? Weird ppl, weird family, or perhaps, it's only me that is weird.. i dunno.. i realli dunno. i dunno why i cant think logically; i dunno why ppl dun accept my pt of view; i dunno why i am e best among e worst; i dunno why i am near e top but never there; i dunno why i am here; i dunno what i am doing now, i think i am mad, am i?

Bad mood = Swimming

2005-06-16T18:26:00.000-07:00

Erm.. Wed, i was at Maple's house, singing Karaoke. We were supposed to meet at 11.30am, but i woke up at that time. Lolx.. This is e first time i am late. All because of medicine. It makes me drowsy, then sleepy. So after waking up at 9am and ate breakfast + medicine, i went to bed, supposingly to have a nap. But too bad, i slept thru.

Ytd night, or i shld say, this morning, i slept at 4am. Again, medicne's fault. i ate flu panadol n e stomach cramp de. In e end, insomnia. So poor thing rite? When i finally got into sleep, i woke up at 8am. zZZ.. That's irritating. Somemore i had to go gym w/ Maple. Lolx.. See, i so nice. Anyway, i met Fung Mei there. =)

I got home at 12+, then do some nonsense and got to sleep at abt 2pm. Siying, Ching Hong and a band girl came and woke me up at abt 2.30pm. zZZ.. Then pull me to play Bball with them. Lolx.. This is child-abuse!! Lolx..

Then from 4-6pm, i tried to sleep, but ended up watching tv. Normally when i watch tv, i wil do crunches or stretching (to prove that i am flexible, i can do split!! Maple, YY, correct?). But i was so tired that i can hardly sit up straight. >.< Lolxx.. See e way u guys treated a patient like me. zZZ...

it's swimming again!! Opps..

2005-06-14T16:45:00.000-07:00

Erm.. I know i am boring u guys, but i muz talk abt swimming again! Lolx... Today, after finishing Chemistry project, i went Geylang East swimming pool. Feel so inferior ok? There's 2 guys who swim damn fast, dash pass me dunnoe how mani times. But, they got no stamina, rest after every 2 laps. Hee.. But guys shld swim faster, not like my bro, quite slow. =)

Oh ya, i think i am getting too dark.. So mani cells dying inside me. Will i get skin cancer? Lolx.. i did apply sun block!! I swear. Haa.. Anyway, i completed 30 laps within 45min. =) So happy. But e sad thing is i cant swim side stroke, b'cos my stomach can't take it.

When i am swimming backstroke, i knock into 2 girls. They laughed every time i swim pass them. I "molested" 1 girl (i touched her hand) unintentionally, luckily i am not a guy. then hor, her friend laugh at her saying, "Wow, ur charm is irresistable, even girls tried to get close to u." That was duh, NOT ON PURPOSE!!

The criteria for Gold Star are:

Jump down from a 3m platform w/ life jacket.
Swim in pyjamas for 2 laps in 2 1/2 min.
Wear life jacket and stay in "help" position for 1 min
Swim 1 lap with life jacket
Swim Backstroke, Sidestroke and Freestyle/breaststroke for 10 laps each in 45 min
Climb up at e deep end without assistance

I am scared of 1, not up to standard for 2, and cant manage sidestrokeand e timimg for 5. =( That's sad rite? Anyway, i wanted to take e test. Half a year later, 1 yr later, 2 yrs, 3 yrs. I dun care, i wil get it rite? =) See, i so determined!! =) i wil get it like i get NAPFA. =) Anyway, i not sure if i passed NAPFA anot. i stil dun believe it until i get e award. i am scared.

Btw, my Mum says she wanted to learn swimming. (Hahaa..) I encouraged her to and volunteered to teach her. See, so Xiao shun (cant spell e "flitial" word). Swimming is good, at least it dun injure ur joints or give u any sweaty feeling afterthat. I promote swimming to everyone. It's a suitable exercise for ppl who have backache, joints injuries, or severly overweight. Dun afraid i looking ugly in swim suit, even i dare to swim. =) Ppl who have water phobia etc, u CAN overcome it, trust me. Give me a call and i swim with u, guide u thru e deep ends. Seok Han did it, why not u? Btw, i am obese now, No longer veri obese. =) Haha.. Not funni. Still fat anyway.

U guys know something called WM (waist-measurement)? The normal for girls is 32inch and 37inch for guys. Mine is 32.5inch. Lolx. It's e first time i am near something. Haha.. Ok la.. bye!!

Poly clinic

2005-06-13T17:51:00.000-07:00

Erm.. I went Poly clinic this morn. It opens at 8am but i woke up at 6, reach there at 6.52am. zZZ.. Everyone there is either old man, old woman, or auntie, uncle. Lolx.. I think i am e youngest there. Hahaa..

Anyway, why am i also e youngest? i am e youngest among my cousins, in e family, in e photography society, in e yoga class etc.. Lolx.. So now u know why i so big sister in sch? I dun like to be e youngest.

Erm.. Abit hungry now.. Jus woke u for my afternoon nap, 12 - 5pm. Violet, u woke me up!! Lolx.. oh ya, forgot to say abt my illness. That doctor says might be problem with e bowel. Lolx.. Cause of this: Lack of fibre (impossible), too much fibre (possible), loss ctrl of large intestine (how would i know?) and STRESS!! Lolx.. why everyone's conclusion is stress? i am not, i think.. Lolx..

Oh ya, Miss Low PJ just came back to S'pore. Anyone knows where she went? lolx.. i invited her to 2P BBQ, dun mind rite? Anyway, i doubt she would go. Hahaa...

Ok la, tonite gotYoga class.. zZZ.. Tml who wanna swim? Sms me.. =)

=( + =) = =|

2005-06-11T21:58:00.000-07:00

I swam 37 laps on Thursday. I stopped cause stomach-ache.. Hee.. Shit is a good thing. I am constipate for 3 days. Opps... E yoga tchr says e first sign of illness is defined by ur shit!! Haa.. Now, thanks ur shits for being norm.

Friday i did nth, so never blog, then today.. Opps.. I went swimming again!! Lolx... It's healthy, u see... Not everyone can swim, knows how to swim and can overcome water-phobia. Opps, do u know who i am refering to? I got no phobia in water, but i have phobia in EL. =) No one dunno rite? Lolx...

Btw, my Cousins are having swimming lessons with a coach, called Kelvin. Quite good looking,well tanned and veri muscular, too bad i dun like guys. So now, any one interested in swimming? Lolx.. u all are lechers!! Anyway, too old (look like Mr Chin's age but i think he's onli 23), Mr Chin looks so young, baby face >.<) for u all and his gf damn chio.. Btw, he's a National Swimmer, but he swam quite slow but his move is veri graceful. tsk.. Wanna see? Wait for me to buy a under water camera housing + camera. (10 yrs later)

Then, some time ago, i says i wanna learn Gold Star, then thot of giving up again. My cousin so --- loh.. Kids wat, then she told him i wanna learn Gold Star, i think i shocked him. hahaa... An elephant can get Gold and now wanted Gold Star. He gave e "Are u sure? Am i hearing things?" look.. >.< i can swim ok? Haa.. Sigh.. Never mind la.. ppl is national swimmer loh, willing to teach me is good enough. I will prove to him that i can swim + i have really gotten my Gold, 5 yrs ago.. So now, my strokes abit wrong, for i stopped for 2 years.. =(

Oh ya, now i wan to complain abt my stomach. Sucks!!This whole week it's cramping, every night!!! Absolutely EVERY night!! It's hell for me, imagine that it can wake u up in e middle of e night, how much pain it mus have to wake a log like me? >.< But, u guys sure says i should get it, for cold drinks, chilli etc.. But today it got so pain until i cant swim on. zZZ.. frastrating... My Mum says drink filter water will get better, rubbish man.

Something more joyous, i got a photo shot at a hindu's temple tml morning. Although it's damn early, (8 o'clock must reach Sim Lim complex), but duh, it's worth it. i so worried that my Auntie tells my mum i got cramps jus now then tml cant go loh.. Haa.. ok la.. Almost ten ok, i go zZZ liao ok? No one reads anyway, unless there's gossips.. So realistic!! >.<

Lots of cheaters!!

2005-06-09T12:41:00.000-07:00

Whee.. Everyone fan wo aeroplane (did i spell "aeroplane" correctly?).. Some got menses, some gotactivity, some simply too lazy.. zZZ.. i wan to swim!! So hot!! So frastrating (sp?)!! >.<>.<

Anyway, u know how much i wanna swim? I dreamt of my pri sch mates and u guys at e swimming pool, like an event celebrated by e swimming complex that brought everyone there. Lolx.. How could u all!! i am pissed by u all loh.. ='(
Pri 1 lang: Dun talk to u all le.
Pri 2 lang: Dun friend u all le.
Pri 3 lang: Dun play with u all le.
Pri 4 lang: Dun respond to u all le.
Pri 5 lang: Dun care abt u all le.
Pri 6 lang: Dun study with u all le.
Sec 1 lang: Hear no evil.
Sec 2 lang: Does it matter?
Sec 3 lang: Emm, i got lots of friends.

See, i use all these, how sad i am! Ok la.. think i going Toa Payoh... See if go swimming or gym.. i am boring to death. Does it mean that i am boring? ??? Passerby, did u trick me with words? Watever.. Bye, i going out.. Opps, Win, i broke my promise.. Hee.. Dun chat to u liao..

Shoot, shoot, shoot!!

2005-06-08T15:30:00.000-07:00

Lolx.. Other than e shooting from e camera, my mouth also shoots a lot today. I suppose u guys never read e past entry abt my spoilt watch. Ya, today i went to China Town to take photos. Then, on e 17 May, i bought a watch there and it spoilt within 2 weeks. So, obviously i aren't veri happy with it.

I brought back e watch to e shop and quarrel w/ e auntie there. I didn't know i am so fierce, so demanding. Lolx.. Ayway, they changed e batt. and wanted to charge $5. i refused. Then they wanted me to get a new watch and charge $10. Obviously, i am not willing. In e end, i got a watch for $5 dollars. Same type. Anyway, i think i am giving it away. It's new ok? But i guess watch izn't veri suitable for me. Better not spoil this too.

Back to e photo shooting. I think i irritated a lot of ppl. Some were so pissed and just came straight to me and complain. Then some were so nice that they volunteered to have their photos taken. Then, got one uncle started to talk to me abt photography. I realised he knew nth. Hahaa.. Oh ya, got 1 guy in e car saw me taking photos and giggle to himself in e car. Weird ppl..

Anyway, i took 248 photos with e digital camera and 36 photos with manual camera. Lolx... digital camera shots are all taken on e bus, so got reflections. Ok.. Next time i will show u all.. =)

Anyway, Baba, dun be sad ok? Regarding ur Uni post. It's ok la.. U tried hard for ur SATS, everything u can do, u have done, that's more than enough. It's jus like my streaming, perhaps a bit more than it for it's more impt. But, how u know? It might ended up to be a choice more suitable for u... Cheer up k?

Down with flu...

2005-06-07T23:03:00.000-07:00

WheE.. Got a flu.. I think it's because of e IT course ytd. How could i stay in e room 4 more than 3 hrs? Luckily, i didn't have nose bleeding. Hee... Anyway, if not flu, i would be at e swimming pool. If not flu, i will not be mugging SS. Lolx.. Anyway, e veri obedient me has contacted all my group members. I suppose we can finish our project soon. =) I am so hardworking, i suppose no prob rite? ;)

Oh ya, ytd got Yoga course, we are still learning breathing and some warm up.. Lolx... Damn funni.. Some actions seemed simple to me but mani cant do. But i think my Mum more flexible than mi. Lolx..

Anyway, i am boring to death. Any good idea what i can do? I tried to get a part-time job, but cant find any and my Mum dun allow. All because of EL. She thinks that EL is e most impt thing now. I have to mug AMAP. >.< i am doing that!! Hahaa... Aren't i nice? By passing, so mani ppl feel happi loh.. So i wil pass, perhaps i shld say, i muz pass. =) For myself and for ppl beside me.

It's not stress, this is motivation, not e "motivation" from Mr Chin and Mr Chan, opposite de that kind. But this is true motivation, a desire, lolx.. i am not stressed at all, but i can still scored well. Not like Sun Tai Tai.. Everyday thinks of her "Husband" onli.. lolx... Opps.. Did i talk bad abt anyone?

Anyway, i wanna shoo my granny back to Penang liao, my whole family gained weight on an ave. Only my bro not involved as he often eat out. >.< Joking la, i shoo her back then got no good food, but her dishes veri oily + salty, can't stand it. Sometimes i rinse with water b4 eating loh.. Lolx..

Btw, i am wondering if i am talking to myself, why no one commented on anything i wrote? Lolx.. Izzit because u all never read har? Lolx.. And my blog design... Too lazy to change, just leave it ok? lolx... Anyway, let's be environmental friendly!! =) Start packing up ur old cans and bottles, clothes and newspaper etc now!! =) Stay green!!

Water boys!!

2005-06-06T09:24:00.000-07:00

Did anyone watched "Water Boys"? So nice!! I think is because i like swimming, then water ballet, then stunts then everything there!! Lolx.. Make me feel like learning.. Hee.. But too difficult for a pig like mi.. =)

In fact, i got a reflection from it. Lolx.. It's at e end, when everyone performs, and many cried. Can u imagine, e guys cried? E onli reason is because they are touched by it. Whenever u study, work for smth, it is because u desired e end result.

Who hoped that they study then still fail? Who hoped that they swim weekly and still as slow? Who wished that their friends all betray them despite them trying to be nice? Who wanted to jus give in and not take anything back? Lolx.. forget it la... U cant find anyone who is so nice, so loyal... >.<

Btw, my dog is back, can come and play with it ok? Lolx.. He quite guai la, not like what my bro says when he last got back. Hee.. Anyone wanna donate dog food? I dun mind ok? Hee... U guys can visit it with entry fee of food. =)

Anyway, i cousins are here ytd. They used my towel (e one Cha, Pra, Baba gave) and my cup (given by Michelle Yap and Mei Hsin).. No one dares to use my bday present loh.. How could they? >.< *&^%$# Next time, i am going to keep everything... See i so nice to my bday present, so nice to e ppl who gave me that. i remember who give what ok? Lolx.. ok la... Now having IT course, better listen.. =)

I am who i am!! And that will remain..

2005-06-04T16:59:00.000-07:00

This morning got CCA, i woke up at 6+am ok? zZZ.. Last nite slept at 1+am, cos i read thru Hist guide book. Lolx... So obedient rite? Obviously e motivation cant come from this year's tchrs. Anyway,partly because i didn't wan to fail it again despite &^%$ her. It's also because i am bored la, i admit. Lolx.. TV is too boring 4 me. >.< _No life_

Anyway, CCA is rather nice today. I took damn lots of shots, smth i like. Did i ever mention? I like photography because i enjoy e feeling of pressing e shutter release with a thot in my mind. It's then transferred to my pix. =) Isn't it interesting? Lolx.. U might not feel it, but when u like something, it's b'cos of e satifaction it brought along with it. =) Jus like Maths, Science, swimming to me.

Anyway, i made my senior angry. I dun even know why. I concluded that she's petty. What nonsense. They ganged up to bully me then i jus rebuke back. Nikki hit me, so i hit back la. But i treated her like Sis, do u think i use a lot of strength. Then my senior hit me again, jus to help her. So i hit back la. Then she tried to launch a 2nd attack yet failed. Oh, that's why she got angry. >.< Do u think i wil apologise for that? Hahaa... Day-dreaming, even if yes, not sincerely.

Oh ya, i realised i always make ppl angry. I think i because of my candid-ness. Being candid is my good/bad point. U dun wan me to be too straight, then i am not candid anymore. Nonsense. >.< How can i be e actual person i am whom u like and be e insincere person whom u like too. Can u choose one? Lolx.. I never change, it's ur point of view of me that changes.

Anyway, i went swimming again. With Seok Han. Lolx.. I realised that i have been swimming thru this week. That great, isn't it? But i turned damn dark. zZZ.. I dun like!! Anyway, SH, great improvement made!! U swam quite fast now. Marion, dun worry, u are faster than her. Lolx..

Chaster is back, forever i think. But he didn't seem happy. I dunnoe, and i am not playing with him for e time being. Sheng gou de qi, childish rite? Lolx.. ok la, damn long.. Bye!!

Whoo.. At last, no more work! =(

2005-06-03T14:39:00.000-07:00

Erm.. Today, got stucked to Maple again. Lolx.. Yes, the veri nice me accompanied her to gym, which i concluded that it's a rather waste of $$. Wanna know why? We went there for 1 hr onli. then plus the talking, quarreling, playing, waiting etc, we spent damn less time on e machines. (Maple, hear that?) Lolx.. but ok la.. This gul damn weird, she asked me why after 2 sessions, she never reduce any weight. Lolx.. Can someone answer her? (I am trying to sound sarcastic, did i mange to do that?) Lolx...

Btw, i went to e Popular b4 hand. =) Just because my bro went ytd.. Hahaa.. Lame rite? But i spent almost $20, for i bought a stack of writing pads. I am e onli kind soul who wil buy and share. My 2 siblings, sigh, 4get it.. They hardly care, then when they need, hee, they will realise how nice their sis IS (not was, for i am always nice). Oh ya, i bought 3 book marks, and has decided to give who. Lolx.. Wait 4 sch reopens ok?

Oh ya, i met a group of guides. Got Yun Qian they all.. You guys should know who rite? Feel so awkward. Somemore i am alone, zZZ... And outside Gym, i saw Yu Ting (CCA senior) and some friends just finish their badminton game. Lastly, i met Hai Yun on e bus. Weird, why did i meet so mani Cedarians? Is it b'cos it's Toa Payoh? Lolx.. Not important..

Oh ya, i finally completed all my homework! Other than projects work where we still haven't touch a lot on yet. But, the veri nice me did a lot of research, this and that. I am nice rite? =) Hope that we can finish by next week, then i can do smth i like. Eg, completing my 1000 piece puzzle. Anyone interested to help? i will do for about 2 days to finish. Cool rite? Hee.. =) Ok la... Any homework u guys want to rent? No prob. No charge at all, jus make sure u bring it to sch. Lolx... sigh, sad, no more work to do.. Hope sch reopens soon!! =)

Poor goggles +(

2005-06-02T18:04:00.000-07:00

Same old crap, i went swimming alone, again! See la, u guys all dun want me, grow up le jiu abandon your granny, no heart kidney [Xin Gan(lolx..)] ar... Anyway, damn unlucky, every time i go swimming, some thing muz happen. Firstly is my watch, now is my goggles. >.< How pathetic. it has been with me for 3+ years, sad case.

Anyway, Me and My Mac again. I waited for Seok Han forrather long, be'cos i got no mood to do work so waited aimlessly. SH, how could u be late!! >.< What a bully.. lolx.. Not that serious la..

But b4 all this happen, there's one uncle (middle aged) sat in front of me, back-facing. Then, whenever i walk past, he would smile. Being so well-mannered (BHB), i smiled back. Then, he became more and more odd. He stood up and told me that he's going to e toilet. WTC (wat e crap)!! Then b4 he left Mac, he said "bye bye" to me. Weird ppl... Why i always encounter such abnormal ppl. Is it b'cos i am 1? In gym, another uncle also liddat, always talk to me. Weird, i think Uncles think i veri cute, wanna mi as their god-daughter, perhaps, god-granddaughter. Lolx.. Am i that cute and nice? Hahaa...

Btw, Seok Han, sorry hor, used ur HP for so long. 50min 13 sec. lolx.. That Winston la, refuse to hang cos he veri bored. [Cedarians, dun think y y, i know him 4 almost 1 decade. =)] See, so old le stil so irritating. Lolx.. Opps, Win, u reading? Lolx.. But ya la, i also veri bored. zZZ.. In between studies, i think we should have a rest by chatting, talk using ur air-heads. Lolx..

Anyway, i have completed Physics, for rental too.. Lolx... Tonite wil do ERIL book review, who reading "Joy luck club", can tell mi e story? I onli know it's abt 4 mothers and 4 daughters. Their tradition and backgrounds cause e Mum to suffer. Something liddat. Correct? Ok la, bye!!

Gym + Mac =)

2005-05-31T22:28:00.000-07:00

Maple and i went gym today, that girl made me wait for her? Muz apologise rite? That time i made u wait, now fair and square. Lolx... Anyway, Mei Bao damn slack(Hee), she did veri little things because she's afraid to go near those muscular men. Lolx.. I onli walk around too, this is e slackest i can go loh.. Lolx...

Tml Seok Han wil be studying with me and Geylang East Mac. Any1 wanted to join? Anyway, i have been studying in Mac for 2-3 times from Friday onwards. Nonsense rite? But everytime, i stayed more than 4 hours. See, so obedient (so guai sounds nicer).

Curious about what hmw i left? Let me brief u on that, lolx(as if every1 wants to know)...Other than project work, I onli left Chem ws (i dunno how to do), Physics tys and ERIL book review. I read a few stories of e ERIL book, will cheat my way thru ok? Lolx.. Shshh can? Physics is too much work for mi. Firstly, i need to refer to notes, 2ndly, there's 15 pages to do, not 15 questions!!

Oh ya, i realise my spelling for "schedule" is wrong thru'out my life till ytd. Lolx.. It is schedule, not schdule!! Why no one tells me? U guys = cheater. Anyway, i tried to write in proper EL, did anyone realise? Haha..

Next time, Aunties and Uncles, pls tell me if u realise i say or do smth wrongly ok? Esp EL related work. Oh ya, still i have completed my Maths, it's for rental now. Feel free to borrow whenever u need. =)

Anyway, gossips are suppose to remain here, dun anyhow say ok? Later Ms Leong wanna meet me for saying that she got last in e E-rowing. Lolx.. Just laugh and forget ok? Anyway, u guys got gossip then post at e tag box. =) Muz share ok?

(Gossip) That time i say i took Mr Chin's Email rite? Then i tried emailing him. He didn't reply. Does it mean that the Email address is fake? Any other liar. >.< I jus wanna confirm if it's real b4 selling it to extra for other secrets [joking, i promised him won't give other, see i so nice ;)]. Lolx.. I noe i damn gossipy, but i'll stay on, cos u guys like all these nonsense. =`

Chaster came back (for a while)

2005-05-30T05:52:00.000-07:00

That uncle brought Chaster back, for us to see. I wasn't there. >.< Anyway, i am afraid i would cry if i see him.

My Mum says it refuses to look at them. And even find him an excuse that it might be afraid that his owner will leave him. Then he refuses to enter the place he stays, the place he sleeps. He refuses to acknowledge us, refuses to make his joyous known to us. He didn't want us anymore, he's living a much better life. So Nice that within a short time, he didn't want us.

Not long ago, it walked into e storeroom.

With no struggle, he stepped into e chain.

With that simple yet significant act,

he got himself a name, Chaster.

Twice a walk a day,

with accompany of us AMAP.

He got e best food we can afford,

he shared e love in e family.

He was sent off for some reasons,

For someone could afford him abetter life.

Then, with sadness, he left us in tears.

My father, a stubborn strong man,

cried due to his departure.

In tears he brought my Mum to sleep,

and caused us to think of him whenever we see a dog.

Now, he was back. Just to show off,

He proved that he's living a good life.

No longer loyal to my family.

He shown no joy seeing,

Fearing that he will live with us again.

Now he didn't want us anymore,

He is no longer like that day.

That day he left with grieve,

That day his eyes were red.

Yet now, it's our eyes that are red.

A day at e hotel

2005-05-29T12:59:00.000-07:00

My Auntie and Uncle booked a hotel near city hall, called Rendavous (smth liddat). Lolx... Then simply eat and play, eat and play. We went to e cafe, which suppose to provide 2 ppl with evening tea. Then 6 of us jus sat there and started eating. Lolx.. But there's no one else and that guy can do almost nth to us. Lolx..

And we went book fair, so chinese. My eye balls nearly roll out ok? I have seldom see so mani chinese stuffs. Lolx... But i think i read e most Chinese books among u guys, am i right?

For dinner, we order pizza and KFC. The Chicken pizza not veri nice, eat e normal pizza ok? But must still support Pizza Hut, or they will sue me. Lolx... I ate damn lots!! Now, i am 70.7kg... I've gain 3kg.. Lolx... Dun try this ok?

Anyway, my mum wanna learn Yoga (Can u imagine?), so i tag along.. Lolx.. i can do split now!! Smart? This means, practice makes perfect. lolx.. Must try e next time ok? i am sure everyone can. A fatty like me can be so flexible, u guystoo.. lolx...

1st day of holiday

2005-05-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

I went swimming today!! 2 weeks never swim liao, now as slow as my turtle. =) 5+min for 4 laps and 8+ min for 6 laps.Veri lan rite? Sigh.. Must get my cousin to swim with me, then will speed up. Lolx.. Btw, i onli swim 20 laps, cos watch spoils, no mood. My watches will be cursed by me, all spoilt within 2 weeks. I am not going to buy anymore watches. >.<

I have done 1 Amaths ws, 2Emaths ws, 2 Chinese ws, part of EL project, 1 SS ws, and touch abit on chem and physics. Like still got a lot more to go! WTH!! Holidays are more tiring than normal. i have planned my shedule, but now, so much hmw, must change my plans. Sad case. >.< Holidays = Hell. lolx.. i think i am e onli 1 who will say that. Haha.. (Not funni)

Oh ya, i went Mac and study. Ate 2 meals there. Haha.. So unhealthy... But i sat there for almost 6 hrs. Seok Han came and studied with me, but we ended up chatting, i think. Lolx..

Short entry today, bye!!

Last day of school

2005-05-27T21:58:00.000-07:00

Today is e last day of sch.. >.< Sad rite? Sigh.. Can't mess ard anymore.. Hee.. Anyway, I think my Mum was almost bored to death today, i saw her dozing off. Lolx..

Anyway, who say ppl who talk a lot of crap can't study? Lolx.. Mr Eric Tan looked so shocked when he knows i got 3rd. Lolx... Still asked me to get first, no way, Cheryl & Peiting so smart! Mr Chin also dun believe, i seemed so lousy meh? I thot i have high IQ n EQ. (i'm not lying, nor BHB-ing) Although in Cedar i never expect this, but i am quite consistent loh.. >.<

Btw, tchrs quite quarrelsome, or, are complain kings/queens. We often got complains. In CCA, tchrs complain that we neva inform them b4 hand 4 interviews. Then now, tchrs complain that we step in n out of e staffroom. I prefer to do in e com lab loh.. Who wanna go in and look like an alien there? >.< Feel so cheated, do work still kana complain.

Oh ya, i managed to get Chin's email. Lolx.. Not impt, wouldn't realli use anyway. Oh ya, i found out a secret, his age round off is 30!! Lolx..Is round up la, but he not as young as we think ok? I thot he's 23 loh.. Feel so cheated.. Again..

Anyway, today got CCA outing, onli 8 ppl, so fun!! lolx.. Though i brought home e heavy camera bag, but it's stil fun!

`^Gossips`^

2005-05-26T18:54:00.000-07:00

Hey, i finally completed e cutural week events. Hee.. Sigh, sad thing that e photos aren't veri nice. >.< much lowly then my expectation. i cant even get myself to say, "Wow, a good job done!"

Anyway, today in staff room i was looking at Ms Ng (Dun need to know which one) signing in, then jus blurt out whatever i am thinking of. Hee... That is, counting of her age. Opps.. Then i thot she heard it, then cant sign in so stomped out of e room. Shit!! I thot i made her angry, whoo.. Luckily didn't. She claimed that she didn't hear me and was veri busi, she jus walk out. lolx... Scared me like hell ok? i know i veri playful, but also dun angry what, muz realli take notice of what i say. >.< color="#6633ff">Mr Khoo always got angry with me. =P

Today i am in a rather good mood. will tell u guys gossips ok? i know u all onli interested in guys tchrs. >.< Never care abt my interests. lolx.. Ok, e stories began...

(Gossip 1) Ytd, Mich Chia was discussing abt his house with e quite chort chinese tchr. Then he was like saying his house is 1700 feets big, 5 rooms and near the major expressways. E other tchr asks if he stays there bcos his parentsare there. Then he was like saying, "Not realli, i like it mainly b'cos of the convenience it brings." So evil. They wet on laughing loh. Wasn't mean to evadrop, but e room is too quiet for mi not to hear a thing.

(Gossip 2) i was with Mdm Koh choosing pix. Then Mr Chin sits behind. i asked him if he would be here next term (who am i asking for? u better thanks mi). Then he says not sure, and asked why i ask. Mdm Koh replied that i hoped he will stil stay. Then, e evil mi appears again. i told him, "A... Dun realli hope that u stay. Haha.." Think he abit bu shuang, then replied, "Ok la, then i leave right now, bye bye." So act cute, but think he onli 21. Not sure, he refuses to reveal after me proning and proning. >.<

(Gossip 3) Then i asked Mr Chin for contacts no., walau, he refuses to give hp no. loh.. Lolx.. But he promise to give email add. will force him to give. Opps, anyway, take for fun onli. Hahaa.. Some one else might wanted it. =P

(Gossip 4) The e-rowing thingy, Miss Poon got 1st, then Mr Tay, then Mr Eric Tan. Miss Susan Leong got last. Lolx... Shshh... Miss Poon damn pro la.. Even can win Mr Tay.. Madness...

(Gossip 5) e younger Mr Chan quite child-like (Ms Joyce Tan says cant use childish). His table got a dog that looks like Grace's dog and got a soft cat wrist support. >.< color="#99ffff">Mr Chin worse. His bag so gayish, black and white. I told him that then he showed mi his pencil case, worse still. Lolx..

(Gossip 6) e older Mr Chan damn cute.(U guys might not be interested). His work sheets are veri well done and make sure that it is neat and nice. See, he so good, put in so much effort to do. Must appreciate la.. Tchrs give us newspaper cutting,then jus throw to e recycling corner. >.< Waste their efforts.

Like my gossips? Onli Mr Chin nearer where i am, other tchrs onli come in e play with e photocopier. Lolx.. So too bad for ppl who like other tchrs. No Mr Clarence Lim news cos he on course this 2 days. =)

EL phobia, a childhood long nightmare

2005-05-25T16:40:00.000-07:00

I got 3rd in class!! After Primary 5 and 6, i haven't top e class for 2 years, either am i near the top. Lolx... Things seem fine now, but somehow, i still got phobia over EL. Wanna know e reason. I will make it damn clear now.

During primary 2 and 3, Ms Toh (a sucker -- i dun use this word on every1 b4), "taught" me EL for 2 years. She demanded total silent, everday. Then, she expected everyone to score full marks for all e spellings, and would send ppl out of e class every time u forgot to bring smth.

For my case, till now, i never know why i am out of the class, everyday. Although i wasn't the only one, but i am one of them. I hardly have 10 lesssons with her. The only reason known to me is that i borrowed a packet of tissue paper because my nose was bleeding. Then she sent me out.

As for spelling, hello, i didn't even know which chapter they are, why would i know there is spelling. Ppl fear me and no one talks to me, i have few friends, and obviously, no one would tell me that there's spelling. Wow, i got caning everytime. She OBVIOUSLY is bias towards so ppl. WTH!

Only in e mid yr of Pri 3, i went into e class for a few lesson and thot that things are all over. In e end, is my chinese trainee tchr who told her to let us in. The moment she was gone, we are out again.

Whole of Primary 2 and 3, night mares to me. I never know a thing, i never understand a word. And from there, i started failing EL. Sometimes i might cry when i fail EL, but not because i flunk it again, simply because i recalled this horrible nightmare of mine.

A growing child at e prime of her childhood, what a hell she lives in? She never complain, obviously not because she dun mind, but simply because she didn't know what a complain is. Hell, is e onli word to describe her feelings. I didn't know if i added smth else to e story, but that's what i remember, 7 years ago.

Now u understand why i often speak up for tchrs? Simply because i met far worst tchrs then them. Now u know why i often flunk EL? Simply because i didn't have a foundation at all! If u were me, can u withstand it? i think u have already give up studying. If u were me, do u know how to response to all this injust at an age of 8? If you were me, can u regain confidence in tchrs, ppl, friends ard u?

Yes, i agree what has passed is all over, but ya, it matters. The world is unfair, this is known to everyone, but why is there such extreme cases? Mine might not be the worst, but it is in the worse, near the worst. And i sincerely hoped that it's e worst. Why someone who got 3rd in class can end up crying with grieve now? Ans: Hell.

Today i am in e staffroom for a long period. And obviously, hear a lot of gossips. But sorry, the other day ok? Too overwhelmed by ths nonsense now. What pass is pass. SS/hist will pass veri soon,streaming might remain a while more, but this, i doubt i can never get over it.

My blog veri ugly now, dun mind, i lost my html.. Will get smth nice soon. Sorry, pls bear with it.

Maple comes to my house!!

2005-05-24T17:30:00.000-07:00

As usual, i am on duty and running everywhere. Lolx.. Now i can feel the stress. Other than taking photos, e background ppt also need help by sorting e photos. With my "FaNastic" memories, this might be a chore. Baba, i know u dun agree. Lolx..

Anyway, i spoke to Ms Chia today, think she might have a chance to come across this entry, but it's ok. >.<>, i swear.. But i might surrender and admit defeat. hee.. A subject (never alive) beats u (perhaps once alive).. Damn loser.. I know e end result, i would fail EL 4 sure, and try not to fail SS/Hist.

Maple, sorry, made u waited for 30++mins.. Not my fault ok? Lolx.. Erm.. i am at fault too la, i dun mind bearing e accusation. tsk, see i so nice. Lolx.. Btw, my granny food nice? todae's not so nice, but not bad la. Then my room nice? My aunt sux? Opps, that's loud.

Anyway, i think i sprain my right leg again. WTH, they rotate. After running, hands would get e muscleache -- no link. For no good reason, i jus sprain my ankle. Mei Bao, did u see how i sprain it? Lolx.. By sitting on my legs. Nonsense rite? Hahaa....

(Gossip 1) Today i was waiting for Mdm Nur to upload e pix to her com outside e staff room. There is like 400+ photos, so take quite long. Mr Chin saw me outside then asked me who i am looking for and volunteered to help. I think i am damn evil, i told him,"Bu shi zhao ni jiu dui le. (Obviously not finding u)"
Then i think he abit not happi la, 4 i so rude to him when he tried to be nice. Lolx.. But he not as xiao qi as ___ (2P ppl shld know), so he shldn't mind la. =P I think i might offend ppl, so evil. Got someone tell me he today neva style his hair, he looks veri ugly. Opps.. hahaa...

(Gossip 2) Caroline is recovering, that day she was walking perfectly well in Seoul Garden. Then today she walks as if there was no hinder around e canteen. Lolx.. Caroline, must wear ankle protection like me after that ok? It's for ur own good (Sounds like Terry's Mum). Hee.. Dun have some stupid problems like ALL of my joints. Crackle as and when they like, with NO specify reason.

In fact, got another gossip, but i dun remember, next time k? Lolx... I think i can set up a gossip club, jus for lame remarks. lolx..

CIP in old folks home

2005-05-23T19:37:00.000-07:00

Hey, e veri nice me when to Old Folks' Home for volunteerily work today. So nice rite? No CIP points one ok? See, now u understand how good i am. tsk.. Haha..

Anyway, i went w/ a charity grp where kids perform and dance. >.< color="#ff0000">video tape some parts, my CCA anyway, tsk.

There's only one guy abt my age, think he 18 la (Know him too long, i 4got).. He damn unlucky. Ppl of his school also perform e same item as him, then he represents our side. Lolx.. His Shifu (means he got e authority to cntl ur martial arts movement) quite unhappy that he didn't inform them. In fact, all this happens due to 1 word -- face. WTH, adults so lame, wanna face so much >.< color="#ff0000">i am not thick skinned ok? I swear, and Hwee Teng did realli bulli mi, realli..

I am eating durians now. 5fruits = 1 serving, i have eaten more than 5, make it 10 ok? Lolx.. i might nose bleed again this few days, BeWaRe..

Btw, u guys like it in colours? Or Everything is of 1 colour? Cos' Violet says that she ended up reading onli the highlighted words... >.< U better read all!

Irritated >.<

2005-05-22T14:11:00.000-07:00

>.< All e malaysia relatives are out.. So irritating.. It's simply a chore jus to entertain them and go out with them. I rather sleep la.. Anyway, my granny is out, u guys can come and eat penang lasak, mee won gui and other stuffs. Hehee.. Every time she comes out, my whole family will gain weight, for sure.

Anyway, some one wanted to meet mi after school. Weird.. Am i suppose to meet her? I dun see e need, or e reason. Thot there's a mutual trust and respect going on in betwwen us? i am sure some of u know who she is, but, shshh... lolx... Sigh, Prissy, just like u say, we should try not to regret, but now, i regretted telling her. >.< But never mind, at least the msg is put across...

I am planning to finish studying the Source-based questions on Russia, guai rite? Has been slacking nowadays. I completed my maths, chinese and even english own assignment, but could not get myself to settle down to study history. Whee.. Die la, but today i will try to finish that ok? Read only wat. Priscilla, dun learn this from me.

Rgarding poems, more emotionl tht time then write la, very difficult to write when i simply wanted to narrate stuffs. =) Ok, today's entry is damn short, for i jus woke up not more than 4 hrs. Hehee.. Ppl who just started to read my blog, read e past entries ok? Guai... But i doubt mani will read. =(

&^%$#@(&^%

2005-05-21T12:18:00.000-07:00

Today got CIP, collection of old newspapers/clothes. =) That's quite fun. Hehee.. I am abit hyper now, due to my dog. I actually disturb almost every1, even i myself finds it irritating. Anyway, my left wrist is injured, cant really carry heavy stuffs.

Mdm Noor (I dunno wat's e correct spelling of her name) was like calling me not to carry too many things at one go. But the thing is, that's not many. When we need to transport or pack goods, a packet of rice is 10kg. Newspapers = small problem.

Anyway, my Sis got into Mecidine. She was so over-joy (Got such word?) that she kept calling us to call her doctor Lam. I think she will be a good doctor, for she has e real passion in healing ppl.

This period of time while waiting for her 'A' Level results, she has been helping out in a hospital with all e cancer patients whom were diagnosed that they will die within 3 months. What a meaning job, isn't it? From there, she started to go more and more regularly, and now, it's almost a daily thing. =) i hope i can achieve such qualifications.

With this, i could feel e burden on me. Sometimes, i really hope that my brother could do badly, so i feel more ease when not getting good grades. But, that's almost impossible. i admitted that i am stupid, i admitted that i am not as good. So, i am willing to work harder, 10 times harder. Ppl studied for 2 days, i studied for 2 weeks. Although i felt that this might be unfair, but at least i am trying.

Nowaday, ppl says that is e process that is impt, not e end result. Hahaa.. BIG joke. Who really cares? E process is only recognised when u made achievements in e end. But any one takes notice of e diligent failures around. Ppl like to say, when there's a will, there's a way. Bull shit!! What abt e surrounding situation? What abt the burden and work load? Got will might not have a way. All doors might be close, wan2 da4 feng1 cuo1 de2 shi2 hou4, yi1 ge4 ren2 yi1 tin4 mei2 wei4 zi3.

Next time i will type in e form of poems, easier to read. =P Testing only...

My dog, Chaster (izzit a happy ending?)

2005-05-20T15:34:00.000-07:00

Today is e start of cultural week. =) Covered 8 events... And e onli lesson i have is -- 15min of Chemistry. Wow!! But doesn't matter.. My results dun suck a lot.

Updated results:
EL 59.2 HMT 70.3 Emath 83.0 Amath 85.8 SS/Hist 48.7 Geog 70.3 Physic 89.3 Chem 72.5
L1R5 is still 9. But this doesn't matter. The most impt thing is, my dog is gone, forever!!

Si Ying, sorry, i can't wait till you got a dog b4 Chaster left. It was just a sudden decision. An Uncle came and showed my parents his dog's photo. Then, it is almost the same breed. So, Mum gave it away, for that dog is well taken care of.

Sometimes, i am wondering if i could give it its best life. Everyday, it would sit down on e stairs, alone to attract attention. Sometimes when i got too tired, i even refused to acknowledge his presence. Sometimes i didn't even look at him when i was rushing. Perhaps, i treated him like a hinder.

But now, i really hope that he's here, barking (he dun bark unreasonably) with e sound i think it's normally noisy. I really hope that he's here, giving me the pathetic look and hoped that i play with him. For now, i am sure i would run down just to play with him.

My Mum is crying, just like what i am doing now. My mum brings him for a walk twice a day. For sure, this will change her daily life. I am crying, really weeping. I didn't mean to ignore him at times, i didn't mean to kick (gently, i am not VERI violent)him as he was lying on my shoes.

Things which were gone seem more impt than when they were with you. I knew it's just like passing clouds. Come and go as fast as it can be. But, izzit too fast or izzit too slow? It stayed too long, so long that i grew in love with it. It left too early, too early for me to bare to leave it.

Now, i could do nth. i am almost oblivious of wat's happening beside me. But i jolly-well knows that this cover my 13May entry, which i hoped some1 to read. Besides, I agreed for his departure, instantly. i think i shocked my Mum, perhaps she is hoping that i say no to it. After the cats and ginuea pigs incident, no matter it is tortoise or fishes or birds which i don't care abt, they would still ask me. When i says no, that means the final decision is, no.

But i agreed to it. i am sure he could give it a good life, give it much company, really take good care of it. For this i am sure, i should be doing a right thing. The uncle seems nice and his dog is cute, i think Chaster should be fine, living a life he desire there.

Chaster, i will keep u in my prayers, which none enjoys that attention, including those reading this. I am not trying to say that u all are worse than a dog, it's simply to show how much i loved him.

X-country

2005-05-19T16:09:00.000-07:00

X-country today, like usually, i didn't run b'cos of photography. Hee.. Mr Chin suspected that i joined photography b'cos i dun wan to run. That's horrible >.< color="#3366ff">Sham Hwa, not bad. Anyway, i kana suan quite a lot of time.

I saw Mr Darren Chin, Mr Ronnie Goh, Mr Michael Chia, Miss Tank and think Mr Johnny Toh ran. Quite few... Hahaa.. tchrs quite slack..

Anyway, r u guys happy that it rains? LOLx.. Got a fun dismissal and can even play in e rain. i think i quite drench, for i have to protect e camera more than i myself. Jus b'cos it is sch's property. i think i wet my own camera, but it's still working perfectly..

So mani tchrs were drenched jus by shooing ppl ard and saving a causualty. Poor tchrs, doing all e dirty jobs.. Guy tchrs damn BHB, walk in e rain, ppl offer shelter they also reject. Miss Agnes Leong is even wetter, i think she quite poor thing. Drenched from head to toe. Hahaa.. i think i realli look up to her, jus b'cos of ... (i shan't repeat)

(gossip) there was once during sch dismissal, it was raining and Hou Liang and Mr Chin wanted to go home. Mr Hou took out a bright red umbrella and tried to shelter Mr Chin. Mr Chin at first dun want but later still accept his offer and hold the umbrella b'cos of their "unique" heights. Mr Hou takes the umbrella is still ok, but for a young guy like Mr Chin, so weird.. (i dun like guys, dun think yy) hee...

Anyway, we went Seoul garden afterthat, what a waste of $$ + i never run!! Hahaa... But having menses now (opps, my guy frens often read, sorry), then no stomach cramps!! Happy, then eat la.. But also no apetite, so should be fine. =)

On e way home, i met a salesman who tried to sell me a card. i am sorry, no $$. Anyway, u kept saying i am lucky, but i dun agree. LIAR DUN GO TO HEAVEN. i think i am e few pathetic ones who got caught by u. =)

ok la, in case ppl complain my entry is too long, i shan't write anymore, bye!!

L1R5

2005-05-18T17:34:00.000-07:00

Yeah, today we got back ovur SA1 results, suddenly feel so smart. (BHB). This is how WELL i scored.

English --> 57.5 (C5) expected, but i am happy enough
Chinese --> 73.9 (A2) wow, i normally score B3 e most.
SS/ Hist --> 35.2 (F9) this is e 1st time i fail other than EL, that's e result of diff. tchr
Geography --> 78.0 (A1) i studied 2 weeks for the test, never score so well after Ms Low's departure
Physics --> 88.8 (A1) rather good rite? Baba stil says my physic lousy
Chemistry --> 68.3 (B3) sux like hell, considered as flunking loh.. Mr Tan calls me to go combine science. >.<>
Emaths --> 80.0 (A1) who says emath rep muz top? my results now drop by a lot!
Amaths --> 81.3 (A1) Hehee.. Amaths better than Emaths

My L1R5 is 9, smart rite? CA1's result is 11. Improvement shown in 1 humanity, although chemistry sucks.

Ytd i went Health Centre. Reach home at 8+ and caught a flu. So sleep until 6.50a.m this morning and is nearly late. =P

But that is besides the point, the point is, last year on 16 Nov 2004, i was 75.4kg, 153% overweight. Ytd, 17 May 2005, i am 69.2kg, 141% overweight. It might still sounds very heavy to u, but the nurse was more happy than i do. Hahaa.. Because if i am 140% and below, i don't need the health checkup anymore. 0.4kg to go, lolx.. 10kg to get out of TAF, but i won't try to make myself vomit like the Straits Times girl.

Oh ya, jus to say, although everyone tells me "kan bu bu lai", but my family members all "kan de cu lai". You guys never pay attention to me, or perhaps being rounder or longer doesn't matter. That's wat friends should be. ;)

I didn't do it on purpose, as in, dieting. But is really LTC that gave me the drive to do it. i train for Napfa, b'cos in LTC i think i am very lousy, esp after the streaming incident. So, choosing the instructors to me is really a nightmare. i am afraid that i cant continue to work if i'm not chosen. I'm afraid i might lose more self-esteem if i am not chosen. But, i am proud to announce, "I am not chosen." This is b'cos i saw it as a bias system, so wat if u win in smth unfair. LOLX.. So, this doesn't matter. i tried even harder, jus to wake myself up. i think i am awake now!! Lolx..

Maple says i always repeat wat i wrote, did i? I think is streaming + Napfa. But they are e things that affects me most, opposite of each other, and obviously, streaming has a larger impact. I'll try not to repeat ok? That is, try.

Dun complain to me u dun wan tchrs to read, then call me dun link u. But, i trust the tchr, i give u my words that i think she wouldn't say anything. Even if yes, i'm sorry. It's my judgement that is wrong. i won't take out the links. Anyway, if tchrs realli interested, let them read, what's the problem. I gossip so much, talk bad abt tchrs also not afraid. Dun complain can? lolx...

Yeah, tml on duty, no need to run AGAIN!! lolx... Cross-country rox, photography rulz..=)

e day of a slacker + unhappy childhood

2005-05-15T04:00:00.000-07:00

Winston Tay, u damn "bu gou peng you", i always help u loh.. Even help u to call girls, then u lar, didnt even wanted to help me to add tag board. But since i am smart, obviously i know how to add.. -angry- Amos Chia so much nicer than u loh... Winston = Big Loser.. First day of new year called me just to call me a loser, midnight somemore.. So childish rite? Know u for 9 years liao ok? 1 more year then is a decade, damn long loh.. Stupid!! Next time dun help u liao.. Dun call me to ask for news of Lavina! Opps, i say that out... But every1 knows rite? Hahaa..

Today i did nth.. At first, i wanted to brush up my SS/Hist, but i can't get myself to do it.. That's worst than doing a comprehension + summary. How sad, i tot EL is the greatest fear in my heart. No, got smth else.

Anyway, i went to NTUC to help my sis to buy her brownie mix. The smart me (BHB) obviously waste time with good bargains. I forced my sis to help me mark my compre + summary. Aiya, last time got tuition, got ppl help mi mark. As for now, dun have any1 to help, Eldora also not veri convenient, dui bu dui?

See, i so hard working, i cheated my sis to help me mark my work(she refuses to, cos she says my work is totally wrong, muz edit the whole thing), not to get her to buy me things. Sigh..How pathetic that is.. Being hard working also need to beg, cheat, praise ppl. Poor me...

Anyone of u interested to mark for me? Got answers provided by the side. i just need to confirm if e sentence structure, grammar, tenses, expr. and answering techiques are correct, esp summary. A lot meh(it's quite a lot, but if u'r gd, it takes little effort)?I think i damn slack now. Last year i complete an assesment every 1-2 months. This year, i haven't even touch the first assessment. =P Sorry, Ms Tan? Hahaa.. Damn slack, u guys must remind me ok? Or i would soon join "The Slackers Club" and i suppose i am in CCC, "Cedar Crap Club". lolx..

Anyway, my good Junior Priscilla is damn hard working. i feel so inferior towards her. i taught her stuffs, and she scores better than me, thinking that she is not hard-working enough. Priscilla, u must know when to slack and work hard, dun tire urself ok? i will try to work hard, if i can...

For maths, sci & photograph perhaps i will. Even giving me 5 duties a day, i wouldn't complain. i mean, i wouldn't complain too much..Like tuesday and wednesday, i am e only one on duty. Then cultural week, i will be everywhere again. =) i dun mind, for at least i got smth to play with... But as for things i dun like, forget it..

But winners get their position thru hardships. Dun try, u will never know. I know u guys will say i am naggy, but i can tell u this, Grace doesn't belongs to F&N. i might belong to Triple science, if not for my pri 2-3 incident.

A good teacher's motivation can bring u thru your life, but jus an inhuman teacher can cause ur life to be destroyed ( i know e spelling now, i will never spellit as "destory" again!!). That tchr caused me not to trust any ppl other than family members thru that period of my CHILDHOOD ok? How pathetic.. That is the saddest thing that had happened to me in my 15 years of life loh.. ^%#@! Do i sound fierce? Perhaps, but i really HATE that so-called teacher.

Oh ya, my sis and mum attended a course, teaching u how to use ur sub-concious. For ppl who knows me quite well, i like psycology (i can't spell!). i read abt how ppl use their sub-conscious to bring them to greater heights, like kept telling urself u'r e winner b4 u slp and right after u wake up everyday(Seok, i neva bluff u). They told my mum and sis the same thing, but obviously, a $200+ course must teach smth else. It is, "Ur sub-conscious can't differentiate right from wrong, u just tell it want u want, it will wilfill them". Haa.. So use propaganda to cheat ur sub-concious now! Damn funni. if i can, i wanted to attend too,but it is far too ex and must be 16 and above. Wasted! My sis and Mum dislike the course, but i believe i will enjoy it.

P.S. is my entry always veri long? i make more paragraphs wil be even longer.. i find it so irritating jus to reread to find mistakes loh.. But i am talkative, cant help but talk a lot..

Nonsense

2005-05-14T12:20:00.000-07:00

This morning, i went to gym with auntie Marion. This is her first time steping into the gym. Logically, she will do a lot of ridiculous things. Hee.. That's her. Anyway, afterthat, she toured my house(Both house, none of u saw my e other house b4 rite?), got amused by my dog and even help me to choose clothes for my senior's bday party. Hahaa.. But she nearly vomited blood. All, absolutely all my more formal clothes are pink (cos my mum thinks pink suits me). But in e end, i shoo her home so that i can bath. Evil?

My senior's (Pratiwi) b'day party is held at Pan Pacific, a buffet which costed $50 per head. Damn ex rite? I only ate a pasta and some ice-cream, a total waste of $$ la.. My tutor (Baba) went to fetch my another senior (Chayanit) for she was ill and refused to come. Hehee.. Thru my KPO-ness, i went w/ him in his BMW.

That car is damn cool, got satellite map (or whatever u call that). His driving skill has improve a lot, not as jerky anymore.. BUT, obviously, he still can't drive that well. He nearly hit the side of the road while turning. It happened like more than 3 times loh.. Sigh, rich kids damn good, 19 years old can drive a car, not like the poor kids like us. He even can send us home individually loh.. Nonsense..

I suddenly feel so awkward. I am the youngest (Other than Pra's 11 yrs old bro), no one shares my childish-ness. How could i survive in such environment? Every one is like damn rich, damn smart, damn "old". What abt me? No conversation could be made. Poor Baba has to entertain me thru the party, although he doesn't really do it. Sigh, poor me, next time not attending such party anymore. Or maybe perhaps, there isn't any next time.

Madam Maple, am i writing in paragraphs now? Ching Hong says i got a lot of spelling errors; my sis says my grammar sux; Eldora says i cant construct a proper sentence (in short: expr error); Now, Maple says i can't write in paragraphs. >.< color="#ff0000">criticised.

Sigh, i think i started to have AP (Attitude Problem). How could this happen to me? I am scared of it ok? i dun wan to be like e ppl whom i dun like due to their AP. Smth that is more scary is that my auntie says i woke up in e night, on the light and start telling her abt geog. Then, i just lie down and sleep. Isn't it scary? But i got 20/25 for that test, top in class.

Friends, especially ppl who meet me almost daily and ppl know me inside out, outside in, u better tell me if u realised i having any AP problems. i think perhaps my cramps (cause by appendix) is the root of the problem. >.< color="#ff0000">remember to remind me if u realised i got AP ok? Thanks...

Reflection from SS/Hist result + Ms Low

2005-05-13T23:33:00.000-07:00

Hey, interested in how i score for SS/Hist.? i got 2, 3, 6 for 3 tests which were upon 13 marks.. Quite cool rite? i could add all the marks together and i still cant get a full marks.. Wow!! And surprisingly, i got 78.0 for geog, 4th in class. Can u accept such crap? As for geog., after Ms Low PJ's departure, i hardly get any A's, Thanks to Mrs Low and myself, i have proved that i can do it... Anyway, i know u guys saw Ms Low on Wed, but dun bullshit can? Maple told her that i am dying to see her; Seok Han asked her if she did see me. What the crap, paiseh u know?! Anyway, just to clarify AGAIN, all this nonsense abt me liking Ms Low all comes from the "trip" to Mac. I simply says that she is quite cute+her style of speaking is similar to mine therefore i understand. And Shee Ping starting spreading, i agreed that it's true for fun and there's no end to this matter. Lucky Ms Low is understanding and she is a girl, if i say i like any guy, then that will be worse and for sure, he will know rite? Dun mess with tchrs la, i veri ShYyy.. =P

As for SS/Hist., i will not comment on my present tchr but my past tchrs. Ms Joan Chia, u know how desperately i hoped that u can teach me for History. 1 sesmester, 1 term, 1 chapter, or perhaps, just 1 lesson. You are the motivation for me to mug (sounds odd, i mean, ur encouragement is the motivation) despite failing throughout the year. I tried my best to mug, for one simple reason -- u r nice to me and i don't want to disappoint u. As for now, no motivation, perhaps, there might be some cold shoulders floating ard (i mean what i say, Ms Leong says we must be responsible, therefore, i am using the word "might"). i dunno what will happen if Ms Chia read this, but i am sure to say, i hoped so. Perhaps i might feel awkward seeing her, perhaps i might avoid her, perhaps she might feel indifferent. But this matters to me. For Streaming, i think my stream result is a correct choice for me. Everything is ok, really.

In fact, a blog to me is simply a way to talk to myself, a method to tell myself that, "Hey, get over it ok?" What a lousy method, isn't it? But ya, i hope i can get over it and make myself e motivation to study even harder (i studied!! Jus that i cant apply!!!!!!!!!)

(Gossip) Our class got some ppl check mails during Ms Tan's lesson. Ms Tan was quite angry, and shoo them back to class. I think that Ms Tan was rather confused/troubled for i kept hearing her says, "What am i doing?" Should be because of the test papers. Then now, they irritated her and never give a proper explanation, that's why she is angry. But Ms Tan is very forgiving. I think this shld be fine after thaeir apology.

Kayaking course

2005-05-12T22:21:00.000-07:00

Yeah yeah yeah.. I have completed my 1 star kayaking course.. Think should be able to pass... Anyway, we, 17 TAF girls who were led by Ms Ng Bee Sun and 24 guides sec 4s... It's rather easy to differentiate who belongs to with group, isn't it? Hahaa.. We learnt quite a lot, ranging from ways to move the boat to rescue. The coaches are damn nice, esp Nor, she's so caring and gentle loh.. (attention: i am not Les)
Afterll, this allows me to know some ppl from guides and some ppl better from TAF.. No matter wat, i am the only sec 3. Oh ya, muz talk abt the transport home. Day 1, i went off with Ms Ng to Aljunied in cab. Day 2, i went back with SiHui's father's car which he sent me straight home... Thank you uncle...
This is quite a wonderful experiences and now, i feel safe to kayak in the sea!!

My lost key + CIP

2005-05-10T21:02:00.000-07:00

Spectacles + Retribution

2005-05-09T20:47:00.000-07:00

Hey, today is a Monday, Monday blues.. =) But Mr Eric Tan is a great entertainment!! Who did not see him wearing spectacles today? So nerdy, plus a guai-looking hair style... Oh ya, it's e same design as Si ying, the only different is the colour.. lolx.. And also, i got 20/25 for geog!! Top in class. Take note, it is a humanity!! I have never thot of toppig a humanity. But, i studied for 2 weeks, therefore, it is worthwhile. Everything is possible, in e name of God!!
Anyway, i went to make a pair of spectacles today. =) With Si ying's advise, i chose a dark blue half frame glasses... Ao unlike me rite? You guys will see it very soon. hahaa... Will force Siying to collect for me as it is near her house.
Anyway, i think is retribution, Caroline hurts her leg and cant really move well, then i started bullying her. Firstly, i went into her class and "comfort" her. All because of my irritating behaviour, i said that her leg looks odd, then pour everything in her pencil case out. That's was evil rite? Afterthat, i make fun of her when she walked pass my class and crap a lot. On the way down after soon, she went down much earlier than me, then i saw her at the sec 1 corridor. I said in a sarcastic manner that she was scrolling! =) Then she went into the general office, i followed in. Suddenly, i realised i sprained my neck!! Now, i can only look straight, can't even shake or nod my head. ='(

My Family

2005-05-06T13:31:00.000-07:00

Sigh.. It's Friday again, no sch tml!!! the only thing i am happy abt is that i can swim tml again!! Yeah.. But might go Gym, see if my Mum is willing to go with me. My whole family is plump plump at first. Now, my sis is in e borderline overweight zone; my bro who has been in e sch's rubgy team is now damn fit.. My Dad is ok, quite short, but not bvery heavy.. As for me, just got into e overweight zone.. I have been also in e obese zone since primary school. But!! 1 impt person in my family -- Ma Ma.. Mother's Day is coming, i wanted to buy her something. i look at the clothing -- no size; i look at the shoes -- they will tell me, "i am not 11". What can i do? Sigh.. In the end, only can buy her smth sizeless -- Perfume. "Ma Ma, Bu Yao Zai Chi Le", that's e message my sis pasted on her desk. But, obviously, it doesn't work. That day when i reach e shop house(3+pm), i saw her eating prawn crackers. then i went up and took e lap-top, planning to mug for a while. Less than 5 Mins, she finished half the packet and changed to ice-cream. What nonsense!! Must really drag her to gym with me. She is willing to, but simply lazy.. See, i very obedient nowadays right? although ytd ran until vomit and now got cramps on my hands (perhaps i run with them), i am still willing to go. =) Anyway, ytd is horrible, i have never been so tired before.. Trembling the whole evening, cant sleep at night and could not think properly. Anyway, i can do Amaths, not Emaths. So, sorry Mr Eric Tan, your rep quite stupid.. Oh ya, i got 23/30 for Chemistry. Although quite low, but 2nd in class.. =) Smart rite? (BHB) Anyway, now is assembly period in school, my English teacher, Ms Janice Tan took over e lesson and brought us to the lab. Suppose to do project, but no one cares. =) (Gossips) Ms Janice Tan getting married? Dunno, but i think so.. Hahaa.. She never say anything, but i ask her and reply myself, she did not denied, or perhaps too lazy to response to my nonsenscial words.. =) Doesn't matter, i am Optimistic!!

P.E./ Geog test

2005-05-05T17:37:00.000-07:00

Today got P.E.. First time in my life, a P.E. that lasted 100mins... lolx... P.E. + jogging period + part of recess.. interested in what we did? Hahaa.. we simply ran 12/13 rounds.. So many rounds till i lost count.. i think i completed, but Regina stil running, so i go another 1 round. if Regina didn't overrun, then a lot of ppl only ran 7 rounds.. Never even see them overtake me.. See, i so honest, even ran a round more and make Ms Poon wait..
Anyway, got dirrohae(sp).. then stomach cramps loh, wat to do? Run!! It's not impt anymore, since it might be permament.. Cant help but jus live with it.. Optimstic rite? =)
Erm.. First 4 rounds was not counted, cos Ms Poon thinks we were slacking, making a lot of noise and not putting in effort.. But doesn't matter, i prefer Ms Poon trains us and everyone suffers with me rather than i train myself (That's quite evil).. So, re-run..Dunnoe why guys like to play soccer, so difficult to run on e fields..
(Gossips) Mr Chin is doing what he always do again, --> "movitation".. Say i slack (quite true), neva lift up my legs, and the most impt thing, "suan" me.. Hahaa.. Doesn't matter, as long as he is willing to talk crap, and know that he meant well it's ok.. Better than some tchr who is extremely sarcastic in an evil way.. Ms Poon damn nice, better than Mr Chan.. Last year, Mr Chan was my P.E. teacher.. i completed the rounds slower, then he complained that i wasted his time and not very willing to wait for me. >.< But that is his kind of movitation, though feel quite bad, but could understand that he too meant well.. =)
Yeah!! For geog i got 19/25.. First time after Ms Low(dun xiang y y) left ok? Hahaa.. So glad.. Never imagine i could be so smart.. =) L1R5 i got 11... Chinese 3, Geog 4.. Maths and Science all 1s... Cheryl's L1R5 is 6 ok? that's terrifying.. then Rachel got 9.. Her humans quite good loh, not like mine.. :'( ok la.. today's geog test all not those i studied, but still ok.. i never touch drought ok!!! But shld do fine.. =) ok la.. 4:50pm now.. Got home at 3pm and started using comp til now.. shld sleep more, lack of sleep while studying for Geog.. zZZ...

Labour Day holiday/ went swimming

2005-05-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

Hehee.. i actually woke up at 8+am on a holiday morning ok? obviously, with the help of an alarm clock.. Anyway, went swimming again.. lolx.. Just swam on Sat. Marion cant accompany me, s have to go alone. Anyway, also dun want to kill Marion, 30 laps is hell for her. lolx.. Anyone interested? i swim weekly, 30 laps on an average. =)
oh ya, i think i am getting slower, much much much slower... Before NAPFA, my speed is like 45 min for 30 laps. Now, more than an hour. So tortoise!! but never mind, i may be slow, many of ur still behind me.. lolx.. that's evil of me...
Erm... now is only 1.15pm.. still got a long day to go, need to take chinese medicination later, jus for the nonsenscial cramps. that Chinese doctor tells me is got smth stuck in the appendix.. So, must see how loh.. Nonsense la, now my mum dun even let me drink HL.. Cos' no cold drink allow, i feel like a 2 years old kid ok? lolx.. i think i am crapping now, better not waste ur time, bye!! =)

NAPFA/ Streaming

2005-05-01T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hey hey hey!!! All my school close close close friends would know that i FINALLY passed it.. Hey, aren't you guys suppose to be happy for me? Ms Leong rox man.. She is e only one shouting, screaming, cheering me all the way (bcos every1 else is simply too tired even to talk)!! So, so, so happy that i have passed it, first time in Cedar History! =)
This time, i suddenly realised encouragement and appreciation is extremely impt.Thank you Maple and Si Ying for the last moment of support, Eldora for her watch and all 3S ppl who ran pass me and gave me some word of encouragement. Anyway,if not for Ms Leong, i wont even join LTC, let alone trying to train to pass NAPFA. Ms Wong says i shld give myself a chqance, and i think i shouldn't have such low self-esteem in myself for both Languages and Sports. Mr Chan is another good PE teacher.. Anyway, did u guys realised i took 2.4km run 5/6 times last year? Ran so many times that i cant remember. If Mr Chan did not give me the chance to try, i wont even tell myself that i must pass this year. Oh ya, Ms Poon, her training is damn cool!! Another Ms Lee.. =) Mr Chin also QUITE (hehee..) nice.. His sarcastism is MoTiVaTIoN to him. But he gave me the last support, cos i talked to him abt2.4km and he said if run until vomit can make it de. (am i bad-mouthing him?) Anyway, i didn't vomit. =)
For NAPFA, i told my sis i am willing to fail 10 tests, including maths and science. And i said b4, if i fail Math or Sci, i will go and kill myself (anyway, i am almost flunking chem).. -inference- i am willing to die jus to pass NAPFA!! lolx... Anyway, NAPFA gain back my confidence, which i loss in the process of appealling to get into triple sci. Anyway, for the whole process of appealling, Mr Khoo and Ms Chia played an impt role. Thanks. Sigh.. Though i have gain back SOME confidence, but not all. Til now, i am rather sensitive when ppl talk abt it. But it's ok, for i could do nth now.
Streaming aside, Yeahs!! i have passed NAPFA!! Special thanks to Ms Leong, Mr Chin, Mr Chan, Ms Poon, Ms Wong

mountainturtle

Yo!! i am back!!

i skipped sch!!

Muz read!!

Religion Night mare....

Namecard

Holidays

Nonsense

Wat an old "crash"

Jiang, swimming

16/9/05 Safra meeting

Term 3 holidays

MBS trip

being a loner

I am so fortunate!!

My pathetic school work

Dengue fever

my irritating auntie

Meet-e-parents session

3rd in Photo competition

Photography VS Swimming

1st swimming lesson

>.<

Energy's Concert

more =) than =(

Boring day, boreD me..

3 days journey

Gossips..

1st day of sch -- :) + Mr Chin = :| Poor me lolx..

2P BBQ/slow me

-depressed depressed depressed-

I dunno a thing, am i mad?

it's swimming again!! Opps..

Poly clinic

=( + =) = =|

Lots of cheaters!!

Shoot, shoot, shoot!!

Down with flu...

Water boys!!

I am who i am!! And that will remain..

Whoo.. At last, no more work! =(

Poor goggles +(

Gym + Mac =)

Chaster came back (for a while)

A day at e hotel

1st day of holiday

Last day of school

*`^Gossips*`^

EL phobia, a childhood long nightmare

Maple comes to my house!!

CIP in old folks home

Irritated >.<

&^%$#@(&^%

My dog, Chaster (izzit a happy ending?)

X-country

L1R5

e day of a slacker + unhappy childhood

Nonsense

Reflection from SS/Hist result + Ms Low

Kayaking course

My lost key + CIP

Spectacles + Retribution

My Family

P.E./ Geog test

Labour Day holiday/ went swimming

NAPFA/ Streaming

`^Gossips`^