I dunno a thing, am i mad?

i cant sleep again.. That's sad. it's 2am, Sat morning now. I guess i wil do some reading which would sure make me tired. Whether a not i will fall asleep after that, i dunno.

Anyway, my dunnoe where relatives came and some other relatives treated us to Crystal Jade, TM. From there, i realised that there's a gap between my siblings and myse;f. i am quite sure of that. But whether it's a age gap, a generation gap or a topic gap, i dunno. How sad? On e way home, we were taking bus, and each of us occupies 2 seats as there were few ppl. e journey is quiet, extremely.

As we took 65, it passed Safra, Mavis, Shiyi's house and MBS. They seemed so familiar, they contain my memories. Perhaps i am too emotional, but i could feel e joy in me, root of joy = unknown. I think it's like wat ppl say, "when u'r desperate, everything is nice." Am i feeling that?

When i got home, i asked my Mum, "do i have any siblings?" if my bro were to speak, he wil say that i am doing stupid thing, if i wanna do watever, jus do it. Death is e best. Woww, so i concluded that i got no siblings.

I went back to 6-floor, then i wrote a card 4 Fathers' Day. I cried in e process, why? i dunno. And then, since i cant sleep, i came down to e shop and write this. B4 this, i am playing with Chaster. Did u know how happy he is to see me? He jumped at me, at my Mum, at my Dad. It's rare to see him that happy. then, he followed me up and down, up and down. He's truly happy. Who can be so happy just to see me?Only him, using e simplest way to convey his happiness.

What kind of siblings i have? Weird ppl, weird family, or perhaps, it's only me that is weird.. i dunno.. i realli dunno. i dunno why i cant think logically; i dunno why ppl dun accept my pt of view; i dunno why i am e best among e worst; i dunno why i am near e top but never there; i dunno why i am here; i dunno what i am doing now, i think i am mad, am i?

Bad mood = Swimming