-depressed depressed depressed-

Ytd, i went to Photography Society (MPCC) Tea Session. i realli learn a lot!! At first i wanted to join them to do night shooting at Orhard, but as my Sis brought e camera out and i got no equipment like Tripod, Cable release etc, i didn't go. Then i got so frastrated, in addition to stress, it's e stomach cramp.

Also, from there, i have decided to either get a Canon EOS 350D or Nikon D70. Both have almost e same function and thus, i like both. But the cost is a bit steep. $1900++. My Mum is considering as i really shoot a lot and she cant stand e developing fee.

Then, when i got home, i decided to talk to my bro abt e camera, hoping that he agrees that i can get it. But the thing is, he sucks. That realli makes me wonder if i am his sis. He always calls me "Xiao Pang", i didn't realli take it to heart. But, how could a Bro tells me, "Photography is a waste of Money, a camera shld cost less than $1000, if it's above that, it's mean for lap top." Wow.. i cried. Not because he disagreed to my stand, but he insulted something that weighs a tonne to me.

I believe u guys can see, i am a Jack of all trades, perhaps not even Jack. e few things that proves that i can waste Oxygen in this Earth are, Swimming, Maths, Science, and Phtography. What eles m i good in? i cant sing, i cant dance, i cant write, icant speak logically, i cant understand music. Haha.. i am nth. It's onli Photography. Even ppl in MPCC says that i am good, i can understand things that even some adults couldn't. Hahaa... Photography is a waste of money, then i am a waste of sources, what's e pt i am here. By typing this, i wasted electricity, brain cell, oxygen, materials and alot of surces. Just kill me to save all that. Hahaa.. Not funni at all!

Sorry for making u a rubbish bin, but, i felt so depressed. It's worst than failing SS/Hist. Can u see e link from Photography to me? Can u see e link from Maths/sci to me? Same logic. Same understand. Same reason. I thought thru. i wil give myself half ayr, jus to prove that i can do well in studies, in Photography, in Swimming. I promised God.