being a loner

weird weird weird... I am getting more and more weird. Now, i preferred to be alone, or rather, so how, i am always alone. 3S has not much connections with me. i prefer 2P. During recess, i would go alone, or with 2P ppl. I selom go out with any 3S ppl. However, i could communicate with them and play with them. I mean, so of them.

However, all this seems so unnatural. Although the BE report says that i like to be alone, i still dun understand myself. Being so talkative, so creative, so irritating, how can i wanna be alone? i need ppl to talk to, to make fun of, to try my new tricks. However, i realised that other than praying, i can still talk to myself. other than this, i can even laugh at my own invention and come out with my own communication system. Not with soft toys and all the childish things obviously.

How? i am afraid that i will be anti-social 1 day. I am afraid that i will be sitting alone, looking at my own work and smiling to myself. Whenever i see ppl who sit by the road side, smiling to themselves, talking to the air, fear grows within me. I am afraid i will be one of them in 50 years time.

Ppl.. pls try to communicate with me, i will try to feel less irritated and talk to u all normally. Thanks.. Blahs.. This is nonsense... Mountainturtle = anti-social? No one will see to it, who will believe? blahs.. Rubbish!!